The insanity which is me

Been waay too long. I've been over at wordpress recently

2012-01-01T19:17:00.000-08:00

I'm still around, and I'm still writing. I'm just not doing as much here at Blogger as I should, and I feel awful. I know there are people who actually do read me once in a while. Life has been busy, I'm now raising three autistic kids, one being a teenager, and that seems to take up a LOT of time. Plus, I went back to work last month (holy cheese whiz, it's not only the beginning of a new month, but a new year! WOW!). I completed three weeks of training before Christmas, and was off for a week last week, we go back to work tomorrow. I'm excited, and a little nervous. SO afraid that I have forgotten half of what we're supposed to be doing! *scream*

I've also separated from my husband. We still live in the house together, just he sleeps in what was my daughter's room, and she's become Mommy's new roomie. Not the best arrangement, but we'll manage somehow. I'm learning that I really do love him, just not as a wife should love a husband. I enjoy having him around, and I like his company, but I'm NOT attracted to him. Not at all. I'm discovering that we really have little to nothing in common. I don't believe we ever have. He likes television, computers and video games. I prefer to be engaging with other living beings, preferably face to face (I'll take online interaction if I have to, but I'd really rather be chatting face to face with a good friend). He likes sitting on his ass here at home doing as little as possible. I want to be out being social with friends. He goes, but he'll play with his phone/gameboy/whatever all night long.

But, that's life in my house. We moved in October, too. Have a nice little house that has no TROLLS! YAY! I guess I need to sit and write a nice long entry here and everywhere else catching everyone up on life this last year. But, no time right now. Time for me to hop in my shouw

Getting healthy

2010-09-18T19:06:00.000-07:00

I've been working on losing weight and getting in shape lately. For about the last three or four weeks. I'm getting a lot of people asking me if I'm doing this for the 'right reasons' and I'm getting a bit frustrated with it. My husband asks me at least once a week, or else makes a comment to the effect of am I doing this for myself, and not because I think he'd prefer a slimmer, better looking wife. My parents ask if I'm doing this because my friends want me to lose weight because they're embarrassed to be seen with me (which really makes me wonder, because the last person I 'went out' with for a girls' night was bigger than me, so I'm sure she wasn't embarrassed to be seen with me). Am I doing this because my kids don't like my weight. Questions like that come all the time.

I'm setting it straight right now... I am doing this for ME. Because the weight I'm carrying right now is affecting my asthma, it's exacerbating the pain in my knees and ankles, and I'm thinking that my weight also contributed to the problems in my feet. I don't know, but I think my weight is also contributing to my fibro, and might be causing me to flare more often, but I haven't a clue on that, would need to do some research and check that out. IDK. I know carrying extra weight is part of my lack of energy (WITH the fibro!).

I am losing the weight, and getting in better shape because it's good for me. I want to be healthier, have more energy, and live a longer and better life for my kids. I'm doing this for me, and for them. They deserve to have a healthy mom, and I don't want to pass *MY* body issues on to my daughter, or let my kids learn my really bad habits and have the unhealthy lifestyle I've lived for the last how many years. I've been over 200 pounds since I married my second husband (excepting a brief period after I had an ectopic pregnancy and had to have surgery and blood, where I dropped to 175 for a few weeks until I got pregnant again). I had two days recently where I weighed in at 219, and it was the best two days I've had in YEARS, because I haven't weight under 220 in forever!

I'm back up at almost 230, and I want it to go away.
I WANT TO BE HEALTHY.

My plan for that is to follow the plan that SparkPeople has set up for me:
Walk three times a week at least (I'm working on getting it to every day).
Part of my walking three times a week, I will walk 9 miles a week and walk 5000 steps a day
I will burn 500 calories a day
I will continue to keep my food diary, as well as keeping a trigger diary for foods that trigger my IBS at least four days a week.
No soda, no mochas from the coffee shop (cheaper to make at home, AND less calories).

Non-food oriented goals to help with my physical fitness and mental fitness (which is JUST as important, possibly MORE important) will be:
SUPPORT MYSELF: Be nice to yourself at least once per day
Meditate 20 minutes at least three times a week
Declutter 15 minutes at least once a week
Journal every day

Busy busy busy, as always

2010-08-16T16:52:00.000-07:00

I swear, even on days when I don't do ANYTHING, I feel like I'm running 1000 miles an hour. So, today, when I've managed to get a few things done, plus run around taking Da Hubband to work and getting a couple bills paid, I feel like I've run a marathon! Add to that the heat, and I think I'm about ready to drop!

On a good note, however, it's almost dinner time, and I've only had one smoke today. I'm back to only having three maybe four smokes a day again, so quitting soon shouldn't be too difficult. I'm looking forward to that. I'm tired of smoking again, and having the heavy-smoking roommate no longer living here, I'm going to be able to quit so much easier! For someone who said that they wanted to quit, they never put a lot of effort into it. *snerk* C'est la vie. They're gone, so I'm working on it. :) Except when I'm down at the game store, then there's not much for me to do OTHER than smoke, since I'm not a gamer. But, I'll still go down there for the company. The peeps there are bloody awesome! And it's nice to have people who care to hang out with.

I'm SO looking forward to next Sunday, and our trip to Wild Waves. The kids are looking forward to it, and I can't wait! They're going to have SO much fun, and I know it! I love seeing my smalls have fun! My cousin is planning on joining us, and the biggest Small's best buddy and his family are planning on joining us. Not sure who else, but at least we'll have some people with us. Da Hubband and I won't be alone with three kids. And this year, all three are definitely big enough to go on EVERYTHING, or at least I'm pretty sure they are.

I'm kinda afraid of what's going to happen AFTER our trip! ROFL With my fibro, and that much walking and other stuff, I'm afraid of how much pain I'm gonna be in. It's worth it in the long run, though. As much fun as they'll have, it's worth it.

Then, in a couple weeks, school starts up again. Just five days after the youngest's birthday. His birthday is on Friday, and school starts the following Wednesday. Fun times! Number 1 is looking forward to school starting, and Number 3 kind of is. Number 2 is NOT. She's looking forward to seeing her friends, but doesn't want to have to go back to school. I'm looking forward to it, as are my parents AND Da Hubband! LOL Maybe I'll be able to get work done around the house again. Do some cleaning without them coming along behind me and trashing it! C'est la vie.

Tired, so tired

2010-05-26T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired of the stress. I'm digging us into a hole we can't get out of financially, and it kills me. I know that EVENTUALLY we'll be able to recover, but I'm not sure when that will be! I'm hoping it will be SOONER rather than LATER, but I'm by no means sure of that. I'm so tired of being told I'm a bad mother because of the situation we're in. I had a 'friend' on facebook tell me that I'm NEGLECTING my kids because of the situation here. Yup, I'm neglecting my kids by making sure that they get into the doctor's that they need to, even though it's an expense we really can't afford to take them across the Sound to these clinics. I'm NEGLECTING my kids because I haven't thrown my abuser out on her sorry fucking ass, because she's threatened to call CPS and everybody else she can think of to get my children taken away from me (I know in my head that she hasn't a leg to stand on, but I'm still terrified that there's a minuscule chance she might). But I'm neglecting my children's welfare because this woman screeches at me and puts me down every time I do something the least bit wrong. I'm neglecting my children by encouraging, no, pushing my husband to take a job he really didn't want, just so we'd have income again to keep the bills paid. I'm neglecting my children by pushing my own health concerns and needs to the side for three to five months so that we had the money to be able to take care of THEM.

I'm doing my level best to be the best mother I can, to make sure that my children have food to eat (even if it is only peanut butter and jelly sandwiches), a roof over their heads, and clothes on their backs (even if they come as hand me downs from friends or from freecycle).

I'll write more on this later, I promise

I guess since I've linked to FB, I should write here now, huh?

2010-05-25T14:20:00.000-07:00

It's been a helluva ride the last few months. Ashe got fired, spent three months unemployed, no FOUR months, then got a new job back at the first place he worked here. I managed to juggle finances and not get us in the hole until THE WEEK OF HIS FIRST NEW PAYCHECK! Now, we're so deep in the damn hole I don't know which end is up. Ok, so it's not THAT bad, but it sure as hell FEELS like it!

I'm fighting the depression again, every breath, I have to tell myself that we will survive this, no matter what happens. My mother, who swore back in March that she was going to move out once her cataract surgery in May was done and she'd gone through her post-op checks is still here. I've got to sit down with her, my dad, my husband and possibly my brother and talk to them and tell her, as gently and lovingly as possible that our living together REALLY is *NOT* working, and that I truly was serious the LAST time I told her this. I love my mother because she is that, but honestly, I hate her, too. As a person. I really do not get along with her. For many reasons.

I'm going to sit down here in the near future and write an entry all about her and what she's done, at least from my point of view. Maybe it will be therapeutic. I don't know. I just want some of the stress I'm under to go away for a while.

My utterz

2009-07-20T17:00:00.001-07:00

has decided that after dinner tonight, I'll *have* to work on the mountain of laundry. Time to sort and get rid of a ton of it!

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My utterz

2009-07-20T15:42:00.001-07:00

wonders if anyone else views going to the food bank as an opportunity to try new foods that they wouldn't normally...

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My utterz

2009-06-22T12:00:00.001-07:00

finally awake! Took the kids to the drive-in last night, and got home at almost 2am. But we had a blast!

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My utterz

2009-06-15T18:33:00.001-07:00

is tired, hungry, and wishes she could go to bed!

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My utterz

2009-06-05T13:47:00.001-07:00

If you're in the area, hop on over to Port Gamble, Wa, and look us up! The more the Merrier!

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My utterz

2009-06-05T13:46:00.001-07:00

I is not going to be online for the next 2 1/2 days, I'm gonna be at JUNEFAIRE!! No talking clams or magic boxes allowed!

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My utterz

2009-05-26T10:00:00.001-07:00

Is on a field trip with about a billion hyper kindergarteners. Why did I sign up for this again??

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My utterz

2009-05-12T11:40:00.001-07:00

Is thinking of re-hennaing her hair black today befor the oldest child's appt. What do y'all think?

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Thoughts for today

2009-04-26T23:05:00.000-07:00

I love this....

Today at 5:13pm

Love yourself.
MAKE PEACE with you who are
and where you are
at this moment in time.

Listen to your heart.
If you can't hear what it's saying
in this noisy world.
MAKE TIME for yourself.

Enjoy your own company.
Let your mind wander among the stars.

Try.
Take chances.
MAKE MISTAKES.
Life can be messy and confusing at times
but its also full of surprises.
The next rock in your path
might be a stepping stone.

Be happy.
When you don't have what you want
want what you have.
MAKE DO.
That's a well-kept secret of contentment.

There aren't any shortcuts to tomorrow.
You have to MAKE YOUR OWN WAY.
To know where you're going
is only part of it.
You need to know where you've been, too.
And if you ever get lost, don't worry.
The people who love you will find you.
Count on it.

Life isn't days and years.
it's what you do with time
and with all the goodness and grace
that's inside you.

MAKE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE...
The kind of life you deserve.

---Unknown

SHOPPING LIST!!!

2009-04-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

I'm sure there's more that I need, but this is a good start. :)

Margarine
2% Milk
Yogurt
Sandwich slices
Apples
Bananas
Corn
Cucumbers
Potatoes
Soft Taco Wraps
Ground Beef
Hot dogs
Lunchmeat
Fries/Tater Tots
Corn
Honey
Ketchup
Pickles
Refried Beans
Tuna
Soups
Vegetable oil
White Vinegar
Cereal
Coffee
Mac& Cheese
Sandwich bags
Soda
Baking soda
Oatmeal

My utterz

2009-04-19T00:26:00.001-07:00

needs to go to bed and to sleep, but I think I'm a) too tired, and b) wondering if it's worth bothering if Hubband's just going to wake me up in 90 mins.

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My utterz

2009-04-06T12:24:00.001-07:00

amazingly DOESN'T hurt after a day of skating yesterday!

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My utterz

2009-04-03T10:59:00.001-07:00

spent 6 hours at the VA hospital, but I figured out crocheting, did yoga, and got my head shrunk.

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My utterz

2009-04-02T00:27:00.001-07:00

Di + hormonal contraceptives = a VERY bad thing. I hate my body today. Can I get an upgrade to a better model?? Please?? I'll beg!

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My utterz

2009-04-02T00:24:00.001-07:00

My periods, whilst something to celebrate as being uniquely female, truly SUCK for the pain and hormonal mood swings they bring on.

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Totally AWESOME giveaway!!!!

2009-04-01T16:06:00.000-07:00

This blog: here has an AWESOME giveaway going on.

Go, leave them a comment, and you could win a LunaPads sampler pack! Too freaking cool!

LunaPads are a totally awesome healthier alternative to disposable menstrual products. They're reusable, washable cloth feminine products. They're comfortable (WAAAAY more comfortable than traditional disposable products that can stick to sensitive parts of your anatomy!), and so much better for the environment. The smell that you get when using a regular disposable pad? Not there with a LunaPad. It's cool! A lot of women have also noticed that they have less issues with cramps and a lighter flow after they start using cloth pads! Who *WOULDN'T* want THAT??

Go check out Lunapds website HERE and check them out for yourself, then go sign up for the giveaway!

My utterz

2009-03-27T11:49:00.001-07:00

is tired!! Took my meds last night for the first time in a while, and is noticing a difference, that I'm more tired this AM... not liking!!

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My utterz

2009-03-26T02:42:00.001-07:00

is now certain that her good friend is ignoring her. Phone calls, emails, tweets, IMs and texts all ignored. Very sad now

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My utterz

2009-03-19T13:56:00.001-07:00

Back in the urgent care clinic, another headache, not feeling good @ all.

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Today's stuff

2009-03-17T16:53:00.001-07:00

Sitting here trying to decide what I'm gonna do or not do for dinner.

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My utterz

2009-03-14T15:56:00.001-07:00

I.am.HUNGRY. Food isn't cooking fast enuff

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My utterz

2009-03-12T12:50:00.001-07:00

is alive enough to be down @ the bus stop w/ the Bbubbaman

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My utterz

2009-03-11T21:26:00.001-07:00

has slept off and on for the last 48 hrs, and I'm STILL exhausted. What gives? Dr's office sez there's something wrong w/ my kidneys. Yay

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My utterz

2009-03-11T16:04:00.001-07:00

is still sick as a dog. Phenergan is my friend. Kept food down this am, but still nauseated and VERY tired

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My utterz

2009-03-10T10:54:00.001-07:00

spent the night puking her guts up. Thank the gods Ashe has a dr's appt today @ a clinic w/ urgent care!

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My utterz

2009-03-09T14:56:00.001-07:00

Snow, sun, snow, sun, MAKE UP YOUR BLESSED MIND!! Now back to your regularly scheduled lives

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My utterz

2009-03-08T20:22:00.001-07:00

I fended off ANOTHER migraine tonite. WTF? Two in one weekend? BOTH complicated? There is something WRONG with my body!

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My utterz

2009-03-06T22:04:00.001-08:00

is waiting for CT results to come back.

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My utterz

2009-03-05T00:25:00.001-08:00

It's quarter after midnight, I think I'm going to head for bed, so I'm at least ALMOST asleep by the time the hubband gets home...

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My utterz

2009-03-05T00:06:00.001-08:00

Yay! I have Ping.fm set up. I think

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Flickr

2009-03-04T15:44:00.001-08:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Crazy-driving person's site was hacked, Google has it listed as an 'attack site' and who does she blame??

2009-02-09T08:37:00.001-08:00

So it seems that Dianna and Brea have managed to get someone to hack this site (Umm, neither one of us would need to "get someone"), and then they reported the site to all the search engines as a malware content site and it has been blocking a LOT of people from entering any part of AMW.

They obviously really want this site gone. whatever.

Dianna is quite angry she could not convince everyone of her false accusations of me (extreme depression, ptsd, ppd, crazier than ever, trying to ruin this site, etc)(Uh, no, actually, I'm not. I've very much moved on and past her.) So she did tell people her and brea would stop at nothing to destroy this site. (I DID? I don't remember saying anything to that effect. **LOVE** it when people put words in my mouth) They even made a ning group for planning out the destruction of AMW.(ROFL It was NEVER for 'planning out the destructino of AMW'! My wording of "who are plotting to overthrow their little 'world' " was a play on words! We were going to overthrow their world by creating our own site and have our own place.) Good for them at least they have some meaning in their mundane lives now. How mature and fulfilling huh.

So anyways I found out about the site being hacked and how it was blocking a lot of people from even entering the site and I sent a support email to godaddy, our hosting company. They said they fixed it but it was still blocking people so I had to call them today and get tghem to check the site out again, it is clean and they told me I had to send a request to search engines to get the malware block and warning removed. They gave me info on how and I did.

If I go on my computer I get no warning and can enter just fine. What is odd is if I go on Aaron's laptop which is the same type of computer it blocks me and won't let me even come here.

If I go on Aaron's laptop and search A Mommys World in google the Malware Warning is there right under AMW's name with the description.

It does not happen on my desktop PC. We are on the same network, runnign the same operating system, in the same house, and both are with only 1 year old computers, both dells, it is so weird.

So anyhow I am trying to get this all taken care of but I made this board private. AMW is closed now to the public I am not accepting any new members unless you have a good friend and you want me to register them then I will do that for you.

I closed AMW's doors for the 1st time in 11 years of AMW running.

This board will become a secret within a few years.

The chat will stay open to public and I am opening a new social networking site.

It will be a cross between myspace, facebook, cafemom, minti, babycenter, and mom of multiples.

Thise social networking sites are pretty popular. I want to make money and continue to be a SAHM after the twins are in kindergarten so I need to make a site that brings in cash.

The new site will have google ads and other types of money mkaing advertisements.

This message board will remain the same and you all can just tell me what you want added and removed and it is here to stay as our lil secret.

Yanno, it's been MONTHS since she banned us, and the whole drama went down. Brea and I have completely moved on past her site. Hacking it and reporting it as having malware aren't worth our time or energy. I didn't find out about the hacking until a member told another former staff member who told me LAST NIGHT. Let me say that again, I didn't know about the site being hacked until LAST NIGHT.

Honestly? I encourage her to see if her site host can find an IP for the person who did it. I can GUARANTEE that it won't be mine. I have far more important things going on in my life than to be a bitter, vindictive, childish dolt. Plus, I'm not dwelling on her and her site, because since I left her site, I've spent a whole lot more time with my kids and husband, and have actually been able to ENJOY my family again. So.... whatever. I have my own site now that I'm working to get going. I could care less about her and her site.

Searched for myself

2009-02-02T21:53:00.001-08:00

I Googled my regular username, right? It returned 235,000 results. Damn. most of them really ARE me!

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More from the crazy-driving person

2008-12-18T13:26:00.000-08:00

ZEROCOOL:
I came back here today feeling a sense of annoyance just being on my own website I have spent 10 years building. I have thought about selling it the past couple years and today I really feel the urge to list it on ebay. (Go for it, I know a number of people who would GLADLY help me buy it out from under your fucking ass.... there were a few of us who were working towards buying it out from under you as it was)
I probably will not but this is getitng to be too much for me. Not the site, the work, the time..... it's the people.

Mainly staff. Anyone who is currently here is not the staff I am referring to. I am referring to those who decided to start trouble and got banned or left on their own.I want to be able to enjoy this site too, not just make it enjoyable for you all.I am not enjoying it so much anymore.No one will ever just come to me and talk to me if they feel or think something is wrong,They start the shit talking, behind my back bs, now I am hearing Dianna had sent out emails about me before she even started her Kat bashing staff meeting.

That woman is nuts. She threatens or talks of suicide in almost every chat for about 3 years now. She constantly talks about how fucked up in the head she feels she is (not on her precious site I didn't). She constantly talks about her SEVEN multiple personalities. She constantly whines about her awful pathetic life and utterly pathetic existance. People get really sick of that shit. She pissed off a lot of people and annoyed a lot of people and drive away a lot of people in our chat room the past few years (she and her fucking bitchiness have chased a hell of a lot more people away than I have).I realize back in June 07 a year and a half ago when I lost a baby to stillbirth, I was not doing well. I realize I drove many people off but I made up for it. Once I was able to heal some I came on here and send out this big LONG drawn out appology and explanation PM to ALL AMW members. I said how sorry I was for upsetting, pissing off, and driving away people. I explained how I was feeling and what had happened to me. I explained how my staff insisted they could run the place and I could take a month or 2 off, completely. Like not even logging in. Then they started calling me less than a week into my break saying they could not handle it, they were all fighting and butting heads and they were all power tripping each other and causing serious staff meltdowns. They insisted I had to get my ASS back in here right away and get working on the site. They said there was no way I could take time away. So when I came back all hell broke loose. I was purposely nasty as hell to everyone who had a baby, was pregnant or was ttc. I hated them all. I was upset, resentful, and jealous because I had to vaginally push out and deliver a baby I knew was dead already. They would not put me out and just take it out by c section or whatever. They found no heartbeat it had died and I had to push the baby out. Then see it. Then they took pics of it and it was so messed up they broke all its little fingers off and you could see the broke off fingers in the pic. It was sick. I spent a week in the maternity floor of the hospital hearing crying babies and hearing screaming women giving birth. It was fucked up to say the least. Every nurses that came in would not read my chart ahead of time and came in asking me why I was so sad and angry. Then when I was released and hobbling out of my hospital room, they wheeled a newborn past me. RIGHT directly past me. So you see when I had to come back to AMW why the thought of a baby, the picture of a baby would send me straight to pure anger, resentment and sadness. Then I got pregnant with my twins. I had a scary pregnancy and was afraid they would not come out living. Once wthey were born and then a month later were released from the NICU. I had finally healed from my stillbirth in June 07 (no, she hasn't. She's still dealing with shit.). I had two HUGE reasons to heal. They were my replacement, my happines, my healing. However for some reason Dianna(black_rose) felt that still to this day I am crazy, nuttier than ever, sad, depressed, have PPD, etc(numerous people on the site who have dealt with PPD have said that she is dealing with PPD). Umm... no.I have not given any reason for her or anyone to believe that(numerous signs of erratic behavior, comments that she doesn't feel like doing anything, extremely irritable, sadness, disinterest in activities that were once hobbies, lack of interest in the website she created, and a desire to 'retire' from said website, repeated comments that she wants to sell it, etc). So to find out about that staff meeting she held was not only annoying and baffling, it was really really messed up. Why on earth would she go around preaching to everyone that I am such a fucking depressed psycho mess? She claimed I had been trying to self destruct and sabbotage my website (she has! She's been tearing the site apart slowly since the stillbirth, I've been watching it happen.) and life or whatever.Where the fuck is she getitng this info from? (um, again, I've been watching it happen) Her wacked out dillusional head? Anyhow I will stop now and just say I am not leaving or selling the site today but if another staff or member explosion erupts against me or the site, We are done. 10, 11, 12 years of this site will go bye bye and it will get listed on ebay. I will not sell or give it to anyone. I love and care for my close friends here but enough is enough. The first big staff eruption was with the current owners and members of www.globalfamilyroom.comThey could not STAND the fact I refused to delete any dormant accounts of members who never posted or stopped posting. My reason, because they always come back even if it is 2 years later. They could not deal with it and decided one day while I was not online they would go against me and deleted 3,000 + members. I had logged on, discovered it and who had did it and started banning them and the words FLEW! I was irate and you all would have been too. They kept saying, Kat is all about numbers blah blah she doesnt care if the members all post just as long as she has numbers.THAT IS CORRECT I SURE AS HELL AM ABOUT NUMBERS BECAUSE THATS WHAT CORPORATE SPONSORSHIP WANTS. HUGGIES, PAMPERS, ENFAMIL, SIMILAC, JOHNSON AND JOHNSON WANT NUMBERS. IF YOU CAN SHOW THEM NUMBERS THEY WILL SPONSOR YOUR SITE AND YOU GET PAID AND YIOUR STAFF GETS PAID. Small sites go no where. I want to be paid for my 10 years of blood, sweat and tears so to speak...over this site. Wouldn't you??? Then the 2nd staff eruption was the owners of www.parentalplayground.com they started building a new site when I had my breakdown about my stillborn. They left several months after I had calmed down, felt better, and appologixed to everyone. Why they did not just leave right away and why they waited till everything was better, I was better, and the site was getting back on track.. is beyond a lot of us. But whatever. Now this Dianna explosion is just fucked up. She took advantage of the fact I had been exhausted from the bullshit she started. She was unanamously voted OFF STAFF by everyone at the staff meeting that Dawn and I held the night before last. So she went in, banned and removed me from the yahoo group I started and built which she had no part in and did not one ounce of work on.. gone its all hers now she stole it from me.(It's not stealing if she gave me ownership) Then she stole one of my AMW LJ groups.(again, she gave it to me) Shes a fucking psycho bitch and I really hope she gets her just desserts. WTF is her god damn deal She should be fucking ashamed of herself. AnywaysThis is a final warning.Come talk to me if you think something is wrong. Don't pull a Dianna or AMW will be sold on ebay.

ZEROCOOL:
OH and for the record. I have moved way far past my stillborn. I would like it if you all would too. I got totally over it a long time ago and do not like hearing about it on here and do not like it being shoved in my face so much. I am over it, I moved on. I am healed.(If she REALLY had gotten over it and was HEALED, she wouldn't throw such a fit over people talking about it, now would she?) I hope you all can do the same. Obviously it bothered Dianna still I guess she was pissed I was not still upset or that I heal easier than her psycho ass heals? Who knows. I am sorry if I am hurting anyone by bad mouthing Dianna a little (bad mouthing a little? This isn't bad mouthing a little, this is bordering on fucking SLANDEROUS, and psycho ranting) but I feel after what she said and did to me I reserve the right for at least just today.

This woman has driven me batty for the last time

2008-12-17T21:58:00.001-08:00

This comes from my LiveJournal, because it won't let me post it, LJ is saying it's too long, so I'm posting it here.

Ok, since she's decided to say that *I'M* always whining to her about *MY* shit, here are the transcripts of every conversation I could find between us. WHO does most of the WHINING about personal shit here? Looks like SHE is doing most of the whining, NOT me.

android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:03:46 PM): kat depressed
xamw_blackrosex (12/8/2008 7:03:47 PM): Oh, ok.
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:03:52 PM): kat not coming to staff
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:04:07 PM): will bring it down to a big miserable fest
xamw_blackrosex (12/8/2008 7:04:23 PM): Oh, what's wrong, hunny?
android
jupiter (12/8/2008 7:05:25 PM): lesbian trapped in straight family wife
and moms boady rebelling and trying to break free
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:05:33 PM): upset over no friends here anymore all moved away
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:05:37 PM): and no girlfriend
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:05:55 PM): supressed lesbian side and its breaking free and rebelling
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:05:57 PM):
xamw_blackrosex (12/8/2008 7:06:36 PM): I hear that.
xamw_blackrosex
(12/8/2008 7:06:58 PM): Most of it, except I'm the one that moved, and
I haven't had a chance to make any new friends.
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:08:36 PM): yopui REALLY need to see the thread in planet x lounge called FOR CRYING OUT LOUD
android jupiter (12/8/2008 7:08:39 PM): seriously
xamw_blackrosex (12/8/2008 7:08:52 PM): I'll go check it out shortly.

android jupiter (7/31/2008 10:22:38 PM): man i f*cked up chat didnt I
android jupiter (7/31/2008 10:22:42 PM): by pissing off those bc chatters
android jupiter (7/31/2008 10:22:57 PM): i should have let them be assholes and ignored them
android jupiter (7/31/2008 10:23:04 PM): but gard they were awful some of them
android jupiter (7/31/2008 10:23:09 PM): gawd*

android jupiter (2/21/2008 12:58:59 AM): hi
android jupiter (2/21/2008 12:59:39 AM): thought i was going to end up in the hospital tonight, but i think everythings ok now
DiAnna (2/21/2008 12:59:50 AM): What happened??
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:00:05 AM): TONS of pressure on my cervix, very uncomfortable
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:00:10 AM): plus random contractions
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:00:23 AM): icky
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:00:32 AM): Want some good news?
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:00:37 AM): they both are moving a lot though so they are ok
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:00:38 AM): yah
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:00:39 AM): I got my SAM fixed
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:00:43 AM): Oh awesome
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:01:07 AM): I restored the computer, lost EVERYTHING out of
my profile, restored it back FURTHER, and have everything back. I so
HAPPY
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:01:29 AM): wow i hate when i have to go restore everything
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:01:32 AM): such a pain huh
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:01:57 AM): OMG christine(lubaba) sent me 4 things off my babies r us registry
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:02:07 AM): and said she bought 2 outfits in bangledesh too
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:02:07 AM): It's not so bad, but the restore, then the freak out because my account got messed up was bad
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:02:12 AM): OMG, that's just awesome
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:02:25 AM): yah i am so surprised, its so nice of her
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:02:47 AM): i got this box today and it didnt say it was from toys r us or babies r us
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:02:54 AM): so i opened it thinking it was a new amw sponsor
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:03:05 AM): LOL Must have been nice to find it was for you
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:03:08 AM): and inside was a packing slip from toys
r us./babies r us and it said it was from christine
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:03:26 AM): yah i was like holy cow
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:03:28 AM): that's awesome
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:04:02 AM): yah she sent 2 9 month sized outfits i
put on the list plus one of the crib mobiles and a bathroom safety
latch kit i had on there too
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:04:26 AM): M Yay for babyproofing
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:04:31 AM): hehe
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:04:47 AM): yah thats alwyas an important thing, a pain but important
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:05:12 AM): aarons mom asked me to put more options
on the list she said shes still doing that small shower for us
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:05:24 AM): Nah, I always loved it because my ex (the
literal genius that he is) couldn't figure out how to get it off
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:05:31 AM): That's cool
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:05:34 AM): with her sisters but she said they wont buy anything big
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:05:44 AM): haha thats funny
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:06:10 AM): aaron said he might have talked his dad
into another shower... we ended up with a LOT of medical bills
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:06:12 AM): He literally IS a genius, but couldn't figure out simple babyproofing. LOVED it
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:06:27 AM): out blue cross and blue shield isnt
covering all parts of the pregnancy, we have all these deductibles
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:06:41 AM): that bites
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:06:48 AM): so we paid out almost 500 in deductibles and have another 600-700 to pay out
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:06:53 AM): Hopefully they're covering the delivery?
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:06:59 AM): yah it f*cking sux cause it means we cant buy shit for the babies
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:07:06 AM): yah i Think they are
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:07:21 AM): its some ppo plan whatever that means
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:07:24 AM): i know nothing about insurance
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:07:37 AM): but anyways we have insane amounds with the deductibles it sux
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:07:46 AM): it means it's a shitty plan where the insurance
company is more interested in making money than taking care of the
patient
android jupiter
(2/21/2008 1:08:01 AM): so now it looks like we have to rely on baby
showers for stuff for the babies which i didnt want to do
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:08:05 AM): yah it sems liek a shitty plan
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:08:16 AM): he works for publix grocery store chain
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:08:21 AM): u would think they would have a good plan
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:08:38 AM): like*
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:08:54 AM): LOL At least you can afford to put you on his
insurance. We can't afford the extra $300 A PAYDAY to put me on Ashe's.

android jupiter (2/21/2008
1:09:09 AM): when i had blue cross and blue shield with my 1st
husband(the one who died) we had no deductibles
android jupiter
(2/21/2008 1:09:25 AM): i dont remember any bills or any time where we
went in for an appt and got asked for money
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:09:33 AM): not even with the kids dr appts
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:09:52 AM): yah the insurance is really killing his paychecks
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:09:56 AM): Ashe has Premera blue cross, and he's got some
HELLACIOUS deductables. Altho, an office visit is only $20
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:10:16 AM): my grandma was helping me with
expensises so me and the kids lived more comfortably but shes dead now
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:10:25 AM): so we are struggling a little with money lately
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:10:32 AM): I hear that.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:10:46 AM): my mom keeps coming here to eat a lot too
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:10:58 AM): That sure helps a whole lot *snicker*
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:11:03 AM): yah argh...
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:11:12 AM): this sux i didnt wanna rely on baby showers for baby stuff
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:11:18 AM): i wanted it to just be a little extra help
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:11:32 AM): I hated that, too.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:12:05 AM): i dont think this baby shower is going
to go well on amw.. the one lolo is throwinig for me cause i dont think
that many people replied to participate and now a few amw members left
so some of the ones who replied may be ones who left
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:12:23 AM): she never told me how many participated
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:12:29 AM): I don't know. I'm working on getting something (you know I was)
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:12:36 AM): I think she's planning on it being a surprise
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:12:50 AM): *hugs* i appreciate that
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:00 AM): yh i guess she wanted part of it to be a surprise
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:09 AM): i feel so bad about what happened to her
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:13:13 AM): Same here.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:19 AM): that ex of hers trashing her stuff and her place
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:22 AM): she had to move and all
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:13:25 AM): I keep thinking I should offer to help, but I don't know what I could do
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:38 AM): she said he even cut cords to her computer and threw the monitor
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:13:53 AM): i think her mom has her covered but still it sux
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:14:05 AM): That I don't understand, why did he trash the computer?
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:14:14 AM): money is money and if her mom did help
her, thats money she could have needed down the line someday for
something else
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:14:26 AM): so all that ex did is cost her money she will need later
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:14:36 AM): i dont know she said he really wrecked the whole place
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:14:38 AM): Why does everything boil down to money? ugh, I hate that
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:14:56 AM): i imagine it was pricey to get a new apartment real quick too
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:14:59 AM): and get out of a lease
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:15:01 AM): Sorry, I'm feeling very bitter about money right now.
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:15:09 AM): Yeah. leases are a bitch
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:15:10 AM): yah money sux
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:15:22 AM): i am all upset this week cause we dont have the essentials for the twins
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:15:45 AM): You're not due until June, you have a little while yet.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:15:47 AM): no premmie size outfits and diapers, no
car seats, no where for them to sleep (no co sleeper, or crib, or
bassinet
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:15:56 AM): they wont make it in there til june
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:01 AM): they are tryng to come out now
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:16:01 AM): True
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:09 AM): the dr said most likely 35 weeks
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:13 AM): im 24 weeks today!
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:23 AM): so i got maybe 10-12 weeks to go
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:16:24 AM): As far as a place to sleep, I put Bubba in bed with me from the day he came home from the NICU.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:43 AM): i cant do that out bed is all funky i dont even sleep in it
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:16:49 AM): i sleep on the futon couch
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:17:02 AM): it makes me feel like im drowning to sleep in the bed
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:17:05 AM): I was on a futon at the time. That's funny
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:17:05 AM): so aaron sleeps in the bed
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:17:25 AM): theres no way i can put the babies in that awful bed they would suffocate
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:17:26 AM): That's gotta suck, not sleeping in the same bed.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:17:31 AM): or on the futon
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:17:40 AM): If I had the money, I'd send you my pack n play.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:17:44 AM): yah we just cant right now cause i cant lay in it without being in pain
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:17:47 AM): but it's full of stuffed animals
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:18:06 AM): its ok
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:18:45 AM): im hoping to be able to get something
soon, he says we should try to buy a couple outfits next week.. but
damn this sux.. going to a store is hell on me right now
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:19:10 AM): we had to go to an art store a couple days ago and i was in agony by the time we left
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:19:21 AM): i didnt know shopping would be so hard at 24 weeks
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:20:06 AM): something I discovered when I was pregnant was
take advantage of the wheelchairs that most stores offer. I know it's
embarrassing, but if it's a choice between doing the shopping that
needs to be done, or having contractions, the wheelchair wins out.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:21:10 AM): do they let u use those
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:21:16 AM): i thought u had to be elderly or handicapped
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:21:38 AM): WOW The twin mom at 24 weeks might look
like a typical 32-week pregnancy and may have a uterus 28 inches around
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:21:42 AM): Nope, most stores don't check, and if you're OBVIOUSLY pregnant, they have no problems.
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:22:38 AM): Yup, I'd heard that before. And a woman who is
that big looks like she's ready to pop any second, too. All the more
reason for stores to not think anything of you using the electric
carts. Hell, I still use them if I'm having a bad day walking
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:23:00 AM): ok i guess i can try that but damn that is embarrassing lol
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:23:14 AM): does babies r us even have wheel chairs LOL
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:23:17 AM): I kinda enjoyed it. YES!
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:23:55 AM): Babies R Us usually does. If you don't see one,
ask an employee. Tell them you've been having preterm labor problems,
and you'd like a chair. or make Aaron do it. Put him on the spot
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:26:32 AM): hehe
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:27:18 AM): I'd do that
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:28:21 AM): i hope they give us lots of free diapers and stuff at the hospital lol
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:28:33 AM):
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:28:45 AM): ya knwo i cant even put preemie diapers
on the baies r us list they dont list them as an option on the website
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:29:37 AM): target baby registry blows they dont actually have that much
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:29:54 AM): aarons mom asked me to put on everything i coiuld on it too though
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:29:57 AM): I don't remember
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:30:07 AM): I know I registered there, but it's been too long.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:30:22 AM): she siad if worse comes to worse return
stuff we didnt exactly want for them to exchange for what we did want
even if we have to add money to get it and stuff
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:30:43 AM): Yeah. That's not uncommon.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:31:58 AM): oh and i found out the other high chair
and bouncer seat and swing and exersaucer thing are only avail onlline
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:32:40 AM): That sux! I hated that when I was doing Ashe's
and my wedding registry. things that I *REALLY* liked that were only
available online.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:32:49 AM): so i had to throw back on the stuff we
got and put it as we wanted 2 of them cause we only have oen high chair
one bouncy seat once swing and one exersaucer and if they wanna buy at
the store they wont be able to so i had to throw up doubles of stuff
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:33:01 AM): yah whats with that
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:33:05 AM): only avail online crappola
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:33:22 AM): To encourage people to shop online. It's STUPID!!!!
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:33:43 AM): i wanted to not have matching high
chairs, swings, bouncy seat, and exersaucer so they had more variaty
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:34:08 AM): and i could switch off who sits in what
just for nice exposure to color and different things but darn onl;ine
only thing is messing that all up
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:34:12 AM): Not into the "Oh, they're twins so everything has to be matchy matchy" thing, huh?
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:34:25 AM): i want their clothes to match
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:34:26 AM): but thats all
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:34:42 AM): any baby equip i wanted 2 different but for variaty for them
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:34:57 AM): I'd match the baby carriers/stroller thing, but yeah, everything else, let them be individuals
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:35:29 AM): well i wanted matcyhing car seats and a double stroller
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:35:35 AM): so ok yah one more matching thing.. car seats
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:35:52 AM): I figured as much. you and I tend to think a lot alike'
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:36:03 AM): but i dont know i just wanna get 2 of every outfit
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:36:23 AM): i wont be having twins again so hey why not make their clothes match lol
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:36:32 AM): my mom is mad im not giving them matching names
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:36:39 AM): That's half the fun of twins!
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:36:42 AM): hehe
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:36:56 AM): OMG, like "Stefanee Heather" and "Heather Stefanee" or like Sean and John
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:37:30 AM): Sean and John
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:37:36 AM): Ryan and Rylan
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:37:51 AM): Logan and Brogan.... she actually sent me that
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:37:52 AM): wtf
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:37:56 AM): wtf is a brogan
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:37:58 AM): Ah. I'm TRYING to remember the names of the
twins I knew growing up, TWO sets of twin boys with the same names
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:38:18 AM): i knew a jason and joey in elementary school
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:38:40 AM): and triplets.. heather , brooke, and misty
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:38:58 AM): Ugh! It's gonna drive me bonkers now, because I was the only person who could tell them apart!
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:39:18 AM): I had a crush on one of them when we were in the 2nd grade, too. LOL
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:39:26 AM): so the triplets were like a lovely
meadow LOL the heather(flowers) , the babbling brook and the misty dew
on the grass LOL
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:39:50 AM): Jason and Josh? I know one was Josh, and I'm PRETTY SURE the other was Jason
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:40:04 AM): i cant recall if i knew any more twins
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:40:24 AM): oh wait there was a set in high school, girlsdarn it what were their names
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:40:50 AM): they were identical but wore their hair different
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:40:51 AM): LOL The Stefanee Heather/Heather Stefanee I
mentioned is my one girlfriend. She was a twin, and that's what her mom
saddled them with. unfortunately, Heather didn't make it out of the
incubator in the hospital.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:41:12 AM): thats sad
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:41:25 AM): I've never known twin girls. Had a set of
fraternal twin boys in high school, Frank and Allan (Allen?)
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:41:42 AM): Yeah. One of these days i'll tell you about Stef and why she's one of my heroes
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:42:17 AM): it must be weird to once be a twin and not get to grow up with the twin
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:42:57 AM): Well, since Stef is special, and has always
been able to see and HEAR Heather, it hasn't been a big difference.
heather has always been there.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:43:34 AM): wow
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:43:59 AM): yeah. Stef's an interesting peron
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:45:26 AM): i hate my lame sleep schedule
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:45:36 AM): it was going better for a couple days and now not so well tonight
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:45:54 AM): I hear ya. I'm gonna be getting off here soon
and trying to sleep. My chest is hurting, so I don't know how well
that's gonna go.
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:46:00 AM): so, I am told Lynn is inving everyone at amw to mommy2mommy now
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:46:14 AM): ouch
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:46:33 AM): LOL Let her. She won't talk to me.
android
jupiter (2/21/2008 1:48:35 AM): I would be afraid this thing would be
like riding a rodeo bull...
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2265136
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:49:55 AM): ROFL yeah. I like that image, I think you're right
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:50:34 AM):
DiAnna
(2/21/2008 1:53:30 AM): I think I'm gonna try to get some sleep. I
gotta get up in 5 hrs to get kids up and ready for school. I hate that
part of the day. nobody's awake, and we're all cranky. it sux very much
badly
android jupiter (2/21/2008 1:53:53 AM): night night
DiAnna (2/21/2008 1:54:07 AM): Talk to ya laters.

xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 12:59:21 PM): Hey, Ashe and I were talking about some possible "corporate" sponsors for AMW.
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 12:59:39 PM): And, I thought you were gonna let me and Brea do most of the running?
Kat
(12/3/2008 1:00:05 PM): i have a new idea for us im gonna network us by
getting a new domain name, having us and like 5-10 other mom forums and
we all use our chat room for the chat
Kat (12/3/2008 1:00:17 PM): no this is something new
Kat (12/3/2008 1:00:29 PM): i just partnered with a lady and she moved her site to amw
Kat (12/3/2008 1:00:34 PM): and im trying to get chat going
Kat (12/3/2008 1:00:42 PM): i wanna lay off the board some but not chat for now
Kat (12/3/2008 1:00:48 PM): im gonna focus on chat for a year
xamw_blackrosex
(12/3/2008 1:01:47 PM): Ok. That's something I was just talking about
in the last staff meeting. I found an old chat schedule on the
server. We're talking about getting more of the old chats back up and
that, and stuff like that running.
Kat (12/3/2008 1:02:14 PM): ok cool
Kat (12/3/2008 1:02:24 PM): yah i wanna get us all chatitng but i need people to run the forums
Kat (12/3/2008 1:02:39 PM): like go in like i do daily and add 30+ topics and polls
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:02:41 PM): We're working on getting it all back the way AMW used to be.
Kat (12/3/2008 1:02:43 PM): and get the forum promoted
Kat (12/3/2008 1:02:47 PM): awesome
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:02:58 PM): Including the old PG, because the old PG pushed the forums, too.
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:03:13 PM): Brea and I miss the AMW we both joined, and we're trying to bring that back.
Kat
(12/3/2008 1:03:20 PM): i wanna get a domain name, basically the deal
will be they keep their boards we keep ours, we all network together
and the chat is every0ones chat
Kat (12/3/2008 1:03:37 PM): they can have their own room and also feel free to use the rooms there as well to room hop
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:03:37 PM): That could work, but will a-mommys-world still be us?
Kat
(12/3/2008 1:04:04 PM): and the deal will be they get promoted and we
get promoted cause everyone will promote that main page with everyones
forum links and everyone sends all theor people to the chat
Kat (12/3/2008 1:04:08 PM): yes
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:04:15 PM): Ok, that sounds interesting.
Kat (12/3/2008 1:04:18 PM): yah amw wont change
Kat (12/3/2008 1:04:22 PM): their forums wont change
Kat (12/3/2008 1:04:25 PM): yah
Kat (12/3/2008 1:04:27 PM): i think it could work
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:04:38 PM): Kewl
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:05:18 PM): brb, gotta pay my phone bill
Kat (12/3/2008 1:05:24 PM): this is the site that just moved to amw im not done i have to add ame links on it
Kat (12/3/2008 1:05:25 PM): http://www.vshoppingdivas.com/
Kat (12/3/2008 1:05:29 PM): note our chat is THERE
Kat (12/3/2008 1:05:31 PM): on the page
Kat (12/3/2008 1:05:46 PM): we can offer the other sites our chat room code to add on their site
Kat
(12/3/2008 1:06:01 PM): we can put the chat room on that new domain
with everyones forum links on it and the chat room right there
Kat
(12/3/2008 1:06:35 PM): we will have to get it set up and then go start
asking people to join the network we will only allow like 10 spots in
the network
Kat (12/3/2008 1:06:59 PM): so the thing will be our
people are gonna go check their forums out maybe post but some of
theirs will coem to us
Kat (12/3/2008 1:07:03 PM): come
Kat (12/3/2008 1:07:09 PM): and our chat room will be HUGEly busy
Kat (12/3/2008 1:07:14 PM): if it all goes right
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 1:07:17 PM): Ok.
Kat (12/3/2008 1:14:22 PM): ok now the thing is i need to figure out a catchy says it all domain name
Kat (12/3/2008 1:14:29 PM): and everything i try is freakin taken
xamw_blackrosex (12/3/2008 2:01:32 PM): lol Doesn't it figure?
Kat (12/3/2008 6:55:16 PM): Staff chat! Come join in the fun!

Kat (11/21/2008 1:36:47 PM): is everybody taking off the week for thanksgiving?
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:37:08 PM): Nope. I'm still around. And I have POWER to my computer this year, lol
Kat (11/21/2008 1:37:29 PM): lol cool
Kat (11/21/2008 1:37:35 PM): im staying too
Kat (11/21/2008 1:37:53 PM): ive seen not many on so figured they are all on vacation
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:38:27 PM): IDK
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:38:43 PM): I'm always invisible, hiding from people that annoy me, lol
Kat (11/21/2008 1:39:47 PM): oh ok that may be why people are offline on my end
Kat (11/21/2008 1:39:56 PM): they may just be avoiding me
Kat (11/21/2008 1:39:57 PM): lol
Kat (11/21/2008 1:40:14 PM): i dont have much of a fan club
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:40:17 PM): It may not be you people are avoiding. It's possibly INLAWS they're avoiding, lol
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:40:24 PM): Hey, I still love ya.
Kat (11/21/2008 1:40:30 PM): hugs
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 1:41:07 PM): Hey, 'cause I just got a PM from someone who
wants to be a chat mod, is there a chance I could get the login stuff
to admin the chat?
Kat (11/21/2008 1:41:22 PM): i thougjht u had it
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:41:41 PM): Nope, I can get into the logs, but I can't make people admin or anything like that
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:41:49 PM): no editing stuff
Kat (11/21/2008 1:42:04 PM): ok gimme a few
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:42:07 PM): np
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:42:10 PM): and thanx
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:42:15 PM): **hugs**
Kat (11/21/2008 1:42:16 PM): eating munchies chip mix
Kat (11/21/2008 1:42:32 PM): fingers messy one finger typing now
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:42:32 PM): Yummy!! I just ate peaches n cream oatmeal
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:42:37 PM): lol
Kat (11/21/2008 1:42:38 PM): mmmm
Kat (11/21/2008 1:43:12 PM): holding graham too
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:43:26 PM): seriious mommy multi-tasking!
Kat (11/21/2008 1:43:31 PM): mhmm
Kat (11/21/2008 1:43:58 PM): we got spies
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:04 PM): from punkymoms
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:44:10 PM): Holly?
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:17 PM): could be about dawn
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:23 PM): they hate dawn
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:28 PM): no
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:41 PM): hollys not on punkymoms dont think
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:44:46 PM): Ok.
Kat (11/21/2008 1:44:59 PM): have u seen her freakinn teeth
Kat (11/21/2008 1:45:10 PM): crack only does that to teeth
Kat (11/21/2008 1:45:15 PM): fuckin gross
Kat (11/21/2008 1:45:31 PM): pics on her myspace holly robison
Kat (11/21/2008 1:45:40 PM): public profile
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:45:55 PM): Yeah, I know she has it public.
Kat (11/21/2008 1:46:14 PM): it shocks me she smiles
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:46:29 PM): She's probably oblivious to it
Kat (11/21/2008 1:46:56 PM): it also shocks me no one rags on her about it
Kat (11/21/2008 1:47:30 PM): she does crack or meth SHE HAS TO
Kat (11/21/2008 1:47:34 PM): eww
Kat (11/21/2008 1:48:19 PM): crank crack meth something hardcore
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:48:48 PM): I've known a meth-head. And thinking on it, Holly reminds me of them. (Not, I am *NOT* saying that I think
this woman does drugs by any means, simply going along with her on her
little tirade here, and commenting that personality-wise this woman
reminds me of a person I used to know who *did* smoke meth.)
Kat (11/21/2008 1:49:23 PM): did brea told u about what i said about dAWN
Kat (11/21/2008 1:49:28 PM): dawn* (Dawn is her girlfriend, the woman who she is listening to about important stuff with her site)
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:50:24 PM): Huh-uh (btw, according to comments on Holly's profile, she had the baby)
Kat (11/21/2008 1:50:55 PM): oh did shei think dawns doing her compulsive liar shit again
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:51:18 PM): which Dawn? Your dawn?
Kat (11/21/2008 1:51:25 PM): i think shes lying about the 14 million, about feelings for me, abouot the triplets
Kat (11/21/2008 1:51:31 PM): mhmm
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:51:40 PM): Oh, honey, I'm sorry
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:51:50 PM): Why do you think she's lying about the triplets?
Kat (11/21/2008 1:53:29 PM): photos
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:53:47 PM): Oh?
Kat (11/21/2008 1:53:52 PM): shes not half japanese
Kat (11/21/2008 1:54:06 PM): rob told mes lying about that 4 yrs ago
Kat (11/21/2008 1:54:28 PM): oh
Kat (11/21/2008 1:54:37 PM): boys 7 months today
Kat (11/21/2008 1:54:45 PM): graham 1st tooth yesterday
DiAnna (11/21/2008 1:54:58 PM): Awww! That's so cool!
Kat (11/21/2008 2:02:11 PM): BRB TWINS NEED SOLIDS NOW BEFORE BED oops on the all caps
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 2:02:17 PM): Oh.MY.GOD. It's scary! Holly also looks a lot
like this one girl I used to know, used to be friends w/ my kids
step-mom. Definite white-trash/trailer-trash type. She could be a real
sweetie to your face, but be careful what you said in front of her,
because it would get repeated
DiAnna (11/21/2008 2:02:21 PM): Ok, no prob.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:27:48 PM): ok i cant get u in the full admin for chat because my credit cards on it
Kat (11/21/2008 3:28:00 PM): no offense i just dont let anyone into stuff my card is attached to
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:28:09 PM): Ah, well THAT makes sense.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:28:10 PM): im n there now i can made someone a mod
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 3:28:43 PM): madanbebe I think that's the name, lemme go
confirm the spelling, and see if she's responded to my PM from earlier
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:29:25 PM): Spelled right, but no response, but that's who it was. So, yeah.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:29:28 PM): done
Kat (11/21/2008 3:29:31 PM): i know it had to be her
Kat (11/21/2008 3:29:35 PM): i remember she ashed about it
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:29:45 PM): Ok, that's cool then.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:30:09 PM): wonder why the boards so slow
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:30:11 PM): We've also got some interest in DJs, too.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:30:26 PM): thanksgiving is 6 days away i didnt think most people left tbis early for it
Kat (11/21/2008 3:30:28 PM): who knows
Kat (11/21/2008 3:30:40 PM): oh ok well you wanna set them up hon
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:30:40 PM): Probably people getting ready for the holiday.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:30:44 PM): and work a schedule too
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 3:31:08 PM): Yeah. That's what we're gonna do today, if I
can get my head out of the fog and get the Friday staff meeting going.
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 3:32:11 PM): We had a really bad night last night w/ Bubba.
He came down with a bad headcold, and couldn't breathe, so he was
really fussy and cranky, so he kept us all up last night.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:36:46 PM): wow sounds awful!!!
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 3:40:06 PM): It was. It was traumatic for him, because he
had one of his night terrors to start with, THEN he woke up all stuffed
up, andd it just went downhill from there. My parents got him back to
sleep, and then Ashe got home about 20 minutes later. He and I went to
be about half an hour- fourty-five minutes after that, and we were JUST
getting into a nice sound sleep when he came up to our room, and was
shrieking at the foot of our bed, so naturally, we're cluless, and
trying to figure out WTH is going on. He's all upset because we didn't
respond right away, and so he goes and pouts in the bathroom, and my
dad comes and gets him. So he goes downstairs with him, and we finally
get back to sleep somewhere round 3 or 4, and I have to be up for a
doctor's appt AND to get Mikey on the bus.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:42:29 PM): he needs a cool most humidifier
DiAnna
(11/21/2008 3:42:58 PM): I overslept, but Mikey didn't, I hear the door
slam at the right time for him to get to the bus, and then about 10
minutes later, I hear the door slam again, and him stomping, and he
yells "MOM! The stupid bus driver drove right past me!" so I have to
get up (also, my appt was about 45 minutes later) and drive him to
school. VERY not happy mommy. So I get up, take him to school, get to
my appt, and when I get home, I call the transportation department, and
find out that I am not the FIRST parent to complain about their new bus
driver. and the lady at the transportation department wants me to write
everything my kids have told me down, and have THEM write statements,
so that they can take it to HER boss to have something done about this
driver.
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:43:47 PM): Mikey was damn near in an
Asperger's meltdown when he got home from school yesterday because of
the bus, and was very belligerant about doing his homework because he'd
gotten so spun up about the bus.
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:43:59 PM): which reminds me I need to zip his teacher an email.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:44:04 PM):
Kat (11/21/2008 3:44:13 PM): holy stressful
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:44:16 PM): thanks.
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:44:22 PM): Sorry to vent it all out at you like that.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:44:38 PM): its ok
Kat (11/21/2008 3:44:50 PM): i hope brea isnt upset i did to her about dawn yesterday
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:45:01 PM): What did you do?
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:45:20 PM): Damn, sounds like since I was MIA yesterday I missed out on some action
Kat (11/21/2008 3:46:58 PM): i went off about dawn to her
DiAnna (11/21/2008 3:47:38 PM): That wouldn't bother her for the most part.
Kat (11/21/2008 3:48:03 PM): oh ok
Kat (11/21/2008 3:49:23 PM): Mommy CHAT Time, pass it on http://openmommychat.com
Kat (11/21/2008 4:18:01 PM): can u go in chat
Kat (11/21/2008 4:18:03 PM): like now
Kat (11/21/2008 4:18:07 PM): theres someone alone
Kat (11/21/2008 4:18:26 PM): too lat
Kat (11/21/2008 4:18:27 PM): gone
DiAnna (11/21/2008 4:38:41 PM): Shit, sorry, I had to go meet Mikey's bus to get Bubba's backpack, he left it yesterday.
Kat (11/21/2008 6:45:35 PM): new look v
Kat (11/21/2008 6:45:40 PM): http://www.a-mommys-world.com/
Kat (11/21/2008 6:46:15 PM): i am hopimg this cuts complaints about visability and siute navigation
Kat
(11/21/2008 7:20:31 PM): i redid the chat headers t now says open mommy
chat and moms and mom groups allowed up top instead of a mommys world
and where the cool moms are http://www.openmommychat.com

Kat (10/28/2008 5:18:49 PM): fucking Mandy contacted me Kristen: AGAIN
DiAnna (10/28/2008 6:55:38 PM): OMG, how pathetic can she be
Kat (10/28/2008 7:10:23 PM): yah shes a freak
Kat (10/28/2008 7:10:27 PM): i told her off
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:10:43 PM): good!
Kat (10/28/2008 7:11:33 PM): lemme know if u wanna see what I said to her
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:12:18 PM): go for it, I could use a laugh at an idiot's expense
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:12:44 PM): Mandy I do not have time to go searching for
all your posts and delete them. You can ask catterkids but she probably
does not have time to help you as well. She has no time for
foolishness.. Nor do I. I seriously do not have the time. You all
should have thought of this before you decided to Fuck me over, betray
me, try and copy My site, my ideas, etc. You all should seriously be
ashamed of yourselves. You try loosing a baby and then have all your
FAKE friends on your website tell you they will run the site fully so
you can take a break.. Only to be incessantly called by psycho LEAH
constantly saying I better come back because you all can not do it and
can not get along and this and that one are power tripping.
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:13:02 PM): Then 4 months after I am feeling better, I
appologize to everyone, send a forum wide PM explaining myself and my
actions and fully asking for all forgiveness only for me to find you
you all were setting up a new copy cat site and were planning on trying
to destroy my site and take all with you. How dare you email me asking
for favors. You are all so rude, so horrible, I hope that one day you
are going through hell and everyone turns their backs and fucks you all
over too because you all were imperfect for a little while
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:13:22 PM): You all have serious drug problems, Bunny is a
child molester and a lunatic.. Leah is just out on some other planet. I
have no respect for you all and I do not mourn the loss of your
existence on AMW
Kat (10/28/2008 7:13:35 PM): You disgust me. I
thought you all were my friends. I was very wrong, none of you ever
cared about me or thought of me as any thing but some bitch that ran
some website you wanted a piece of. Please refrain from contacting me
again unless you have the appology of the millennium.
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:13:47 PM): Even then... It would be a far shot of me ever
forgiving you. Ick it makes me sick to think of you all and how fucking
awfully, crudely, and cruelly you all betrayed me.
Kat (10/28/2008
7:14:00 PM): Enjoy the sluts, druggies, and whores you love and admire
on Parental Playground. Oh and WTF is a Parental Playground.. Everyone
that has heard of your site says they think it sounds like some
Pedophile operation in disguise as a mommy site. EWWW What a dumb
fucking name for a mommy site, global family room is even a better name
than Parental Playground.
Kat (10/28/2008 7:14:13 PM): You all
have no class, no artistic values, no original ideas, and nothing to
offer anyone. Parental Playground to me, sounds like a site ran by a
bunch of ignorant redneck idiots.
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:15:21 PM): lol I almost think that insults rednecks!
Kat (10/28/2008 7:15:37 PM):
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:19:05 PM):
Kat (10/28/2008 7:19:47 PM): mandy is annoying
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:20:20 PM): Is she the perpetually hyper one?
Kat (10/28/2008 7:20:45 PM): strung out more like
Kat (10/28/2008 7:21:05 PM): shes the one who had pot leaves and stuff abiut weed all over her myspace
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:21:32 PM): ok.
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:22:43 PM): what is it about pot that people love so damn much?
Kat (10/28/2008 7:22:52 PM): no idea
Kat (10/28/2008 7:23:06 PM): i guess it makes them interesting
Kat (10/28/2008 7:23:06 PM): LOL
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:23:28 PM): idk
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:26:25 PM): dawn told me she was in love with me when her
and I had our thing.... its why her husband started hating me
Kat (10/28/2008 7:26:44 PM): and between her husband and tonya)crystalfantasie on amw) its what ended us
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:26:47 PM): omg, that's heavy
Kat (10/28/2008 7:26:54 PM): YAH
Kat (10/28/2008 7:26:58 PM): i was shaking
Kat (10/28/2008 7:27:00 PM): and speechless
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:27:25 PM): men fucking suck
Kat (10/28/2008 7:27:33 PM): i agree
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:09 PM): i dont even know what to do with that information
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:25 PM): i meanlike she says shes going to come back to fl for a family visit and wants to see me
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:28:25 PM): I mean, it's not like she was gonna ditch HIM for you, I think she wanted BOTH
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:37 PM): i know shes not that into her husband but im married
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:46 PM): yah
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:50 PM): he was cheating on her
Kat (10/28/2008 7:28:57 PM): she tried to get rid of him one time
Kat (10/28/2008 7:29:02 PM): he was gone a week and she let him back
Kat (10/28/2008 7:29:14 PM): he used aslynn as a way to get back in
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:29:22 PM): jackass.
DiAnna
(10/28/2008 7:29:54 PM): Was he sleeping w/ tonya at the time, or was
tonya being a bitch and on his side? sorry, that comment just sunk in.
Kat (10/28/2008 7:29:56 PM): what would you do if you had someone tell you that
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:30:06 PM): probably react the same way you did.
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:30:19 PM): i mean i know realistically that shes married,
im married, shes now in tennessee but theres a pretty big attraction
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:30:20 PM): sit/stand there and spew jibberish for a while
Kat (10/28/2008 7:30:33 PM): she and i openl;y talk about how we feel on yahoo IM and on the forum even
Kat (10/28/2008 7:30:54 PM): ive never openly talked about felings with anyone
DiAnna
(10/28/2008 7:30:55 PM): I know. I can tell. But it's a good thing.
You're happier than you've been in a while with her back in your life
Kat (10/28/2008 7:30:57 PM): ike that
Kat (10/28/2008 7:31:08 PM): i dont know why we can do that but it isnt something i can normally do
Kat (10/28/2008 7:31:31 PM): yah it makes me happy
Kat (10/28/2008 7:31:33 PM): and nervous
Kat (10/28/2008 7:31:37 PM): slightly confused
Kat (10/28/2008 7:31:38 PM): lol
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:32:04 PM): Gee, sounds like love and lust to me. lol
Kat (10/28/2008 7:32:21 PM): yah lots of lust
Kat (10/28/2008 7:32:48 PM): and old unfinished forbiddden secret 2 way love that just got hit by an open flame
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:33:17 PM): I'm sure it doesn't mean much, but I like her.
Kat (10/28/2008 7:33:29 PM):
Kat (10/28/2008 7:33:37 PM): i hate hearing about her husband
Kat (10/28/2008 7:33:45 PM): i hate him for many reasons
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:33:49 PM): I don't think I've heard her talk about him much.
Kat (10/28/2008 7:33:50 PM): one being i still think he raped me
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:33:57 PM): *think*?
Kat (10/28/2008 7:34:01 PM): yah
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:34:53 PM): i got drunk and she was drinking with me, i
was depressed. i remember vomiting and crying and her helping me, then
i wake up hours later no painties, laying on the floor in the hall and
her and rob were gone home
Kat (10/28/2008 7:35:16 PM): i never black out like that drinking
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:35:17 PM): Did you feel like you'd had sex? Any fluids?
Kat (10/28/2008 7:35:32 PM): its been about 3-4 years so now i dont remember
Kat (10/28/2008 7:35:37 PM): ive blocked that part out
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:35:44 PM): Ah, ok. Yeah, big surprise.
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:36:21 PM): dont tell her i said this becuase i dont know
if she knows or what or if she knew but didnt stop him or left and ii
dont know
Kat (10/28/2008 7:36:29 PM): part of me doesnt trust her because of this
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:36:55 PM): I don't think she knows
Kat
(10/28/2008 7:36:55 PM): like honestly i dont know if i trust her muc
more than i trust someone i have just met online and never seen in
person
Kat (10/28/2008 7:37:02 PM): she and i met in person
DiAnna (10/28/2008 7:41:15 PM): Yeah, that much is obvious

Kat
(10/15/2008 7:19:06 PM): hope all is well. I am making some replies onm
the site and may start a new project.. then go to bed.. long day how
are you all today
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:21:03 PM): I'm ok today. Hurt some, but I'm surviving
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:15 PM): *hugs*
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:21:33 PM): How are you and your gang?
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:58 PM): ok, its been a day..
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:59 PM): eh
Kat (10/15/2008 7:22:10 PM): lots went wrong the past 2 days for me
Kat (10/15/2008 7:22:15 PM): stressful BS
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:22:17 PM): Ooh, what's up?
Kat
(10/15/2008 7:24:10 PM): just stupid junk like i hurt my foot, not real
bad though.. the cable boxes went dead because brighthouse did an
upgrade and it didnt take so i had to go swap out the boxes in a 15
minute long line at the office for bright house, one of the swongs bolt
came loose right when i needed to put one fo the twins in that one and
i could not find any of the bazillion allen wrenches so i had to go on
this big search for 20 minutes and didne even find one.. i had to wing
it with a pair of piliers and hurt my fingers arrrgh
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:21 PM): the kids have been arguing and they soaked the bathroom last night
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:24 PM): well their bathroom
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:42 PM): like it toook me a while to get akll the water out and that SUCKED
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:56 PM): thats just a portion of it all
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:25:03 PM): Sounds like it's just been typical chaos.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:10 PM): just a slew of stuid little things one after another
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:15 PM): stupid*
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:16 PM): yah
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:26:03 PM): Well, hopefully things calm down a bit for a few days
Kat (10/15/2008 7:27:45 PM): yah i hope so.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:27:57 PM): ive been posting a lot on amw and others have been too
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:02 PM): now if we can get more to do it too
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:28:09 PM): At least things have settled down here for a couple of days.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:15 PM): by the end of dec i wanna really do alot less on the site
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:27 PM): hoping i can get more people to own parts of the site luiek forums and chats
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:28:37 PM): I posted the widget on all my mommy friends myspace pages that weren't AMW members already
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:50 PM): oh very cool
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:55 PM): i think that widget kicks ass
Kat (10/15/2008 7:29:00 PM): and we need to use it as much as we can
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:29:08 PM): It is SO awesome!
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:29:22 PM): I think it rocks
Kat (10/15/2008 7:30:20 PM): daumaris is being a spaz again
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:30:36 PM): Oh, now what's her thing?
Kat
(10/15/2008 7:31:40 PM): just doing that weird mind thing she does how
if you dont pay full attention she gets all whiney and says oh fine you
dont wanna talk to me and goes on her little whining spree about it

Kat
(10/15/2008 7:19:06 PM): hope all is well. I am making some replies onm
the site and may start a new project.. then go to bed.. long day how
are you all today
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:21:03 PM): I'm ok today. Hurt some, but I'm surviving
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:15 PM): *hugs*
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:21:33 PM): How are you and your gang?
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:58 PM): ok, its been a day..
Kat (10/15/2008 7:21:59 PM): eh
Kat (10/15/2008 7:22:10 PM): lots went wrong the past 2 days for me
Kat (10/15/2008 7:22:15 PM): stressful BS
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:22:17 PM): Ooh, what's up?
Kat
(10/15/2008 7:24:10 PM): just stupid junk like i hurt my foot, not real
bad though.. the cable boxes went dead because brighthouse did an
upgrade and it didnt take so i had to go swap out the boxes in a 15
minute long line at the office for bright house, one of the swongs bolt
came loose right when i needed to put one fo the twins in that one and
i could not find any of the bazillion allen wrenches so i had to go on
this big search for 20 minutes and didne even find one.. i had to wing
it with a pair of piliers and hurt my fingers arrrgh
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:21 PM): the kids have been arguing and they soaked the bathroom last night
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:24 PM): well their bathroom
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:42 PM): like it toook me a while to get akll the water out and that SUCKED
Kat (10/15/2008 7:24:56 PM): thats just a portion of it all
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:25:03 PM): Sounds like it's just been typical chaos.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:10 PM): just a slew of stuid little things one after another
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:15 PM): stupid*
Kat (10/15/2008 7:25:16 PM): yah
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:26:03 PM): Well, hopefully things calm down a bit for a few days
Kat (10/15/2008 7:27:45 PM): yah i hope so.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:27:57 PM): ive been posting a lot on amw and others have been too
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:02 PM): now if we can get more to do it too
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:28:09 PM): At least things have settled down here for a couple of days.
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:15 PM): by the end of dec i wanna really do alot less on the site
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:27 PM): hoping i can get more people to own parts of the site luiek forums and chats
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:28:37 PM): I posted the widget on all my mommy friends myspace pages that weren't AMW members already
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:50 PM): oh very cool
Kat (10/15/2008 7:28:55 PM): i think that widget kicks ass
Kat (10/15/2008 7:29:00 PM): and we need to use it as much as we can
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:29:08 PM): It is SO awesome!
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:29:22 PM): I think it rocks
Kat (10/15/2008 7:30:20 PM): daumaris is being a spaz again (Daumaris is supposed to be one of her best friends)
DiAnna (10/15/2008 7:30:36 PM): Oh, now what's her thing?
Kat
(10/15/2008 7:31:40 PM): just doing that weird mind thing she does how
if you dont pay full attention she gets all whiney and says oh fine you
dont wanna talk to me and goes on her little whining spree about it

Kat
(4/14/2008 7:54:23 AM): it turns out my rib pain on thr right in my
back is a urinary tract infection, I went into my OB this morning,
because the pain was so bad. got antibiotics now. He says if the pain
moves to my lower groin that means I could have stones.. ouchie I hope
not!!
DiAnna (4/14/2008 10:36:33 AM): I have a UTI/kidney infection, too. We can be miserable together.
Kat (4/14/2008 11:07:10 AM): i meant to stay I have a kidney infection its nto a urinary tract infection

Kat (4/6/2008 6:35:22 PM): ive not heard from daumaris
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:35:32 PM): I got a comment from her at myspace that just said "hi"
Kat (4/6/2008 6:35:37 PM): she may be pissed i told u about the pedophile thing(her husband)
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:35:39 PM): THat was either today or yesterday
Kat (4/6/2008 6:35:45 PM): oh ok
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:35:53 PM): Honey, SHE told me about it the night I was reading her
Kat (4/6/2008 6:36:01 PM): OH
Kat (4/6/2008 6:36:27 PM): well GOOD im glad she finally admitted it to more thna just me
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:36:52 PM): Yeah. She told me about it. I'm glad I"m not in
that area, or I'd be in freaking jail, 'cause I'd have killed the mofo
by now
Kat (4/6/2008 6:37:20 PM): i will never get why she stayed with him adn continues to
Kat (4/6/2008 6:38:04 PM): shes known for YEARS
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:38:06 PM): It's because of the abuse. They convince you,
either by what they say or somehow, that you can't make it without
them, they make you terrified of being alone.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:38:14 PM): i think possibly before they married if i recall correctly
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:38:22 PM): It's really hard to get out of a relationship like that.
Kat
(4/6/2008 6:39:12 PM): i was in an abuse situation before it was not
him hitting me though, he was a crazy person and messed with my head
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:39:48 PM): How fast did you get out of that situation?
Kat (4/6/2008 6:39:57 PM): because of that person i lost my kids for 4 months
Kat (4/6/2008 6:40:00 PM): it took 6 months
Kat (4/6/2008 6:40:09 PM): for me to ditch the person
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:40:27 PM): That's rough. It took me 5 years or so to get
out. And the longer I was in it, the harder it was to get out.
Kat
(4/6/2008 6:41:14 PM): because of that person i dotn trust anyone, i
check aarons myspace once a week or so, like i go into his acct, i am
not that affectionate with aaron.. which hurts his feelings at times
Kat (4/6/2008 6:41:24 PM): but im working on trying to be more affectionate with him
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:41:53 PM): Trust is difficult after an abusive
relationship. Poor Ashe pays for things Jamie did to me more often than
is fair.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:41:54 PM): i just am real bad at trusting people though in general and i always think everythings a lie
Kat (4/6/2008 6:42:41 PM): yah i feel bad aaron doesnt get the pre-psycho exboyfriend me
Kat (4/6/2008 6:42:47 PM): cause he knew me before then too
Kat (4/6/2008 6:42:55 PM): he understands though luckily
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:43:23 PM): thank goodness.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:44:01 PM): the abuser guy did some pretty effed up things with my head it was bad
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:44:15 PM): Been there. It's evil.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:44:21 PM): its a lot to type though, i dont wanna write a novel lol
Kat (4/6/2008 6:44:36 PM): yah it is and i feel bad for anyone who comes into contact with him
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:44:53 PM): I have an entire website devoted to the shit
I've been thru, from the childhood abuse to the abuse from my
ex-husband.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:45:01 PM): I know what you mean by writing a novel
Kat (4/6/2008 6:45:31 PM): i try to forget that person but the hardest part of forgetting is i want him to pay for what he did
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:45:54 PM): Yup.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:45:57 PM): and i dont think i will be over the abuse fully until i know someone has made him suffer somehow
Kat (4/6/2008 6:46:15 PM): even if it is someone i dont even know, as long as i know he has suffered i will feel better
Kat (4/6/2008 6:46:20 PM): im sure that sounds odd
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 6:46:25 PM): Oh, god, do I know what you're saying. I want my
brother to pay dearly for what he did to me, but he hasn't yet.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:46:39 PM): ok then i dont sound too odd
Kat (4/6/2008 6:46:42 PM):
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:47:05 PM): It's a common theme with those of us who've been there
Kat (4/6/2008 6:47:05 PM): yah i am angry that he contacted aaron last year on myspace
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:47:16 PM): OMG, you're kidding
Kat
(4/6/2008 6:47:27 PM): so i went into aarons myspace, read what he
wrote after aaron told me anmd i deleted it and blocked him from
contacting aaron again
Kat (4/6/2008 6:47:29 PM): nope not kidding
Kat (4/6/2008 6:47:37 PM): i didnt even respond aaron did not as well
Kat (4/6/2008 6:47:48 PM): ive got him blocked from mine too
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:47:57 PM): What the eff did he want? Start shit?
Kat
(4/6/2008 6:48:40 PM): ok do u wanna call or have me call u and i can
explain it all and try to make it the short sweet version from start to
the time he contacted aaron... or are you not in the phone mood
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:49:04 PM): Phone's charging, we'll catch this one up another time
Kat (4/6/2008 6:49:15 PM): ok np
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:49:27 PM):
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:49:41 PM): We'll share war stories one of these days. LOL
Kat (4/6/2008 6:49:43 PM): he was basically warning aaron that i am some lunatic that lied and tried to manipulate him
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:49:53 PM): ROFL
Kat (4/6/2008 6:49:59 PM): yah some day i will tell u all about that guy though
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:50:22 PM): definitely. It's nice to know I"m not the only one out there that's been thru hell
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:50:46 PM): Dude, I have like 15 empty Dr Pepper cans on the table here. I drink WAY too much soda.
Kat
(4/6/2008 6:50:56 PM): well it made me realize i needed my myspace to
be private because if that guy knew WHO to contact that may be my
boyfrioend, he was reading my myspace
Kat (4/6/2008 6:51:06 PM): wow thats lotsa soda lol
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:51:15 PM): LOL Yeah I'm such an addict.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:51:18 PM): oh god i hope that guy isnt on amw as a member to spy on me
Kat (4/6/2008 6:51:21 PM): that would suck
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:51:41 PM): That's sad. I like keeping my profile public, but I'm paranoid about some people finding me.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:55:38 PM): yah i also dont want my ex inlaws seeing my myspace
Kat (4/6/2008 6:55:42 PM): aarons is private too
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:55:52 PM): The kids' grandparents?
Kat (4/6/2008 6:56:00 PM): yah
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:56:04 PM): I know aaron's is, I looked once.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:56:13 PM): Why not, if you don't mind me asking?
Kat (4/6/2008 6:56:23 PM): cause she took my kids for 4 months
Kat (4/6/2008 6:56:35 PM): and i beat her in court and she was flaming pissed off that she didnt win my kids
Kat (4/6/2008 6:56:45 PM): that dude made me have a nervous breakdown (Oh, admission of another nervous breakdown. She had another one when she lost the baby in '07)
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:56:46 PM): That's my mom.
Kat (4/6/2008 6:56:55 PM): and instead of calming me and helping she called the fucking cops on me
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:10 PM): when the cops didnt do anything, she wrote a 5 page letter to my kids school
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:57:23 PM): FIVE PAGES?? OMG
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:23 PM): and got the child services to take my kids
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:28 PM): that want all
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:29 PM): wasnt
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:38 PM): she had a 200 page file too
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:47 PM): i found out when brandon died she started a file on me
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:50 PM): to try and take my kids
Kat (4/6/2008 6:57:58 PM): even haley who was NOT brandons
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:58:04 PM): OMG! Did she dislike you when you were married?
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:58:07 PM): I didn't know that
Kat (4/6/2008 6:58:15 PM): not that i knew of
Kat (4/6/2008 6:58:19 PM): but i may have been wrong
Kat (4/6/2008 6:58:50 PM): from the time drandon died til roughly 2005 i went through hell
Kat (4/6/2008 6:58:54 PM): brandon*
Kat (4/6/2008 6:58:58 PM): from one thing to another
Kat (4/6/2008 6:59:10 PM): the worst being the kids taken away for 4 months
Kat (4/6/2008 6:59:17 PM): and me having to fight in court to get them back
DiAnna (4/6/2008 6:59:43 PM): But you won. I bet the kids don't see her much, do they?
Kat (4/6/2008 7:00:18 PM): no they rarely saw her from when i got them back til present day... she moved last year though
Kat (4/6/2008 7:00:31 PM): her and her husbands kids and grandkids all moved to tennessee
Kat (4/6/2008 7:00:35 PM): so they moved there too
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:00:57 PM): YAY!
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:01:24 PM): It's unfortunate the kids have cousins they
don't get to know. In some ways, I'm glad my ex was an only child.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:01:35 PM): well its only 2 cousins
Kat (4/6/2008 7:01:47 PM): brandons only sibling, had 2 kids
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:01:58 PM): That's not too bad.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:02:09 PM): Hey, question, when your kids get old enough, will you let them be on myspace?
Kat (4/6/2008 7:03:38 PM): i doubt i will let them
Kat (4/6/2008 7:03:49 PM): i dont even let them use the internet now
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:04:48 PM): Mikey's on the internet, but we keep his list of
approved sites pretty small. And when he is on a site that has a
membership thing (like neopets or gaiaonline), his dad and/or I also
have an account, and we're on his friends.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:05:58 PM): i just dont want to risk them encountering even kids that say inappropriate stuff
Kat (4/6/2008 7:06:05 PM): or adults pretending to be kids
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:06:44 PM): That's why we make sure that we're on his
friends, and monitor what he does. Anyone that contacts him, we look at
the contact, and decide if it's safe or not.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:07:09 PM): thats good
Kat
(4/6/2008 7:07:53 PM): i dont know im just being stubborn about it
cause i feel since i had no internet as a kid they dont need it. and
they have plenty of toys, games, video games, hand held games,
gameboys, arcade plug in gamkes, etc
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:08:07 PM): We have all the game stuff, too. LOL
Kat (4/6/2008 7:08:10 PM): we plan to buy a 200 dollar blow up water slide next month for them
Kat (4/6/2008 7:08:23 PM): so i just wanna keep them internet free
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:08:30 PM): Dude, that sounds like fun! We want to get a blow-up pool, a biggish one, for ours.
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:08:59 PM): It's understandable. Mikey uses the internet at
school, there are some sites that he goes on from school that he's
supposed to do here at home, too.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:09:10 PM): we cant have a pool at this house cause of the lame ass landlord
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:09:51 PM): Our back yard is such that we can't easily have one.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:10:11 PM): But, if we move we might be able to
Kat (4/6/2008 7:10:19 PM): i cnt wait til we move
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:10:42 PM): I'm getting that way. I LOVE this house, and the yard, but the house is falling apart. It's sad.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:11:18 PM): do u know what happened with christine, is she keeping the baby
Kat (4/6/2008 7:11:24 PM): or did he already make her abort it
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:11:55 PM): I don't know, she's made two voice posts at LJ
recently that I haven't had the time (or quiet) to listen to, so I'm
not sure.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:12:14 PM): shes not said anything unless i missed it
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:12:29 PM): Ok.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:12:29 PM): she just keeps saying shes really sick, drained,a dn sleeps all the time
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:12:40 PM): Sounds to me like she's still pregnant.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:12:44 PM): yah
Kat (4/6/2008 7:12:49 PM): she has some flu too
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:12:52 PM): Poor thing
Kat (4/6/2008 7:14:33 PM): we paid my friend to clean the kids rooms
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:14:41 PM): lol
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:14:50 PM): That sounds like an idea.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:14:51 PM): he is coming back the 1st week of may to help with laundry. plan tyo pay him for thsat
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:14:59 PM): I should pay my friends to come help me clean.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:15:13 PM): Or offer free pizza and beer. I know two friends who'd clean for that.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:16:01 PM): Yanno, I wish we could add an interests thing like lj has....
Kat (4/6/2008 7:16:21 PM): yah it helps!!
Kat (4/6/2008 7:16:29 PM): on our profiles?
Kat (4/6/2008 7:16:37 PM): we can do that i could add a part in for that
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:16:44 PM): That would be cool. I'm playing with interests at opendiary.com
Kat (4/6/2008 7:16:46 PM): bb cameron hurt himself somehow
Kat (4/6/2008 7:21:04 PM): ok back, he hurt his lefg, i bandaged it and sent him back to bed
Kat (4/6/2008 7:21:18 PM): ok interests..i can add a section for interests
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:21:41 PM): Yeah, but how do we cover them all? LOL
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:22:03 PM): I hate that lj limits how many you can have, know what I'm saying?
Kat (4/6/2008 7:22:28 PM): oh how lj only lets you add 150
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:22:54 PM): Yeah. I keep having to delete some, so I can change them around. ARGH!
Kat (4/6/2008 7:28:45 PM): one sec
Kat (4/6/2008 7:30:31 PM): ok check your USER cp theres an option now for that
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:30:43 PM): Groovy! Thx
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:32:11 PM): I see interests and likes in the profile
Kat (4/6/2008 7:32:27 PM): yah
Kat (4/6/2008 7:32:29 PM): thats it
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:32:39 PM): Ok, not losing what's left of my mind. LOL
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:32:46 PM): Groovy.
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:32:51 PM): I loves you!
Kat (4/6/2008 7:32:59 PM):
Kat (4/6/2008 7:38:28 PM): ok i added a few for myself
Kat (4/6/2008 7:38:34 PM): on my profile
DiAnna
(4/6/2008 7:38:58 PM): I'm gonna add mine here in a few, I"m working
thru my interests at OD, then I'll probably just copy and paste the
lists from there and LJ
Kat (4/6/2008 7:39:22 PM): does my song start up for you on my prodile http://www.a-mommys-world.com/forums/member.php?u=4452
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:40:12 PM): Once I unmuted my speakers, yeah. LOL
Kat (4/6/2008 7:40:21 PM): cool
Kat (4/6/2008 7:40:35 PM): it starts for me just wnated to be sure it did for others too
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:41:01 PM): yup yup yup
Kat (4/6/2008 7:41:19 PM): laughing AGAIN about the gay black lawnmower guy
Kat (4/6/2008 7:41:31 PM):
Kat (4/6/2008 7:41:39 PM): love that dude
Kat (4/6/2008 7:41:40 PM): lol
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:41:51 PM): I chuckled when I scrolled past him.
Kat (4/6/2008 7:42:06 PM): lol its just damn funny to watch him
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:42:26 PM): Oh, yeah
Kat (4/6/2008 7:46:29 PM): daumaris calling
Kat (4/6/2008 7:46:31 PM): hmm
Kat (4/6/2008 7:46:34 PM): she seems normal
DiAnna (4/6/2008 7:46:56 PM): let me know. I'll be here
Kat (4/6/2008 7:47:17 PM): k
Kat (4/6/2008 8:04:38 PM): she seems fine
DiAnna (4/6/2008 8:04:57 PM): good. BRB, loading Mom's new MP3 player.
Kat (4/6/2008 8:07:58 PM): gonna lay down
Kat (4/6/2008 8:08:02 PM): hugs
Kat (4/6/2008 8:08:04 PM): night
DiAnna (4/6/2008 8:08:13 PM): get some rest. you take care of you and the boys.

Kat
(4/4/2008 2:54:04 PM): im giving up on the daumaris situation, I
suggest everyone else does too. She almost seems to be doing this for
attention. If she is telling the truth about her husband,. she goes
nuts like this each time. She has been doing it since like 2000. She
never leaves him or she runs right back to him no matter what. She
won;t admit that her husband is a pedophile to anyone BUT me. So she
makes me out to be a liar or just acts like she has no clue what anyone
is referring to. She goes all suicidak about it and never does a damn
thing to get her and the kids out and start a new life. She refuses to
accept help from her family or friends. So seriously I am over it.

Kat (2/29/2008 5:48:37 AM): maybe they have better taste than we suspected
DiAnna (2/29/2008 4:39:56 PM): Oh?
DiAnna (2/29/2008 4:40:05 PM): better taste how?
Kat (2/29/2008 5:32:56 PM): if they choose to come to amw they must have better taste
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:33:16 PM): AH
Kat (2/29/2008 5:33:47 PM): today was rough im all tired n stuff but was sick of laying down
Kat
(2/29/2008 5:34:19 PM): i had to go to costco with aaron and they had
no electric wheelchairs so i had to walk all over costco in shoes that
hurt my feet. argh
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:34:25 PM): ick
Kat
(2/29/2008 5:34:37 PM): and before that I had to go with him to babies
r us because we needed a few things to be ready for the babies
Kat (2/29/2008 5:34:51 PM): i could not send him shopping alone it would havhe been a bad idea
Kat (2/29/2008 5:35:04 PM): so i am hurting from my ribs down
Kat (2/29/2008 5:35:05 PM): wheeee
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:35:07 PM): LOL I hear that
Kat (2/29/2008 5:35:35 PM): their preemie clothes looked SO much smaller than the preemie clothes i had for Cameron and Mackenna
Kat (2/29/2008 5:35:43 PM): have they changed sizes over the eyars
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:35:51 PM): Yeah, they have. It's crazy
Kat (2/29/2008 5:35:52 PM): made preemie smalelr and newborn smaller
Kat (2/29/2008 5:36:02 PM): or is newborn NOT 0-3 months is it a different size now?
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:36:10 PM): What were preemies then are newborns now
Kat (2/29/2008 5:36:22 PM): yah i was like WTF
Kat (2/29/2008 5:36:31 PM): im not getting these i dont think they will be THAT small
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:37:19 PM): Yeah, I know how that goes
Kat (2/29/2008 5:45:28 PM): 25 weeks today
Kat (2/29/2008 5:45:35 PM): probably 10 more weeks to go
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:45:43 PM): WOw
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:45:59 PM): I can't type.
Kat (2/29/2008 5:47:23 PM): i didnt like that marketing companies offer so i said no
Kat (2/29/2008 5:47:30 PM): im sure something better will come up
Kat (2/29/2008 5:47:47 PM): it weas going to be more than 1000 rotating text link ad's
Kat
(2/29/2008 5:48:08 PM): im fairly sure it would ahve slowed amw pages
down fiercely because in order to do rotating text links thats java
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:48:12 PM): Wow... and they couldn't guarantee what would be in it?
Kat (2/29/2008 5:48:18 PM): and java would make amw pages crawl
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:48:21 PM): Yeah
Kat (2/29/2008 5:48:26 PM): now they refused to give me a list
Kat
(2/29/2008 5:49:03 PM): theres really no other way to do rotating text
links so i know for sure no matter what was in the linsk it wopuld have
slowed every page of amw down
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:49:41 PM): That sux. I hate when sites are slower than molasses
Kat (2/29/2008 5:57:14 PM): watched this a bit ago http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0401244/
Kat (2/29/2008 5:57:22 PM): i was like HOLY cow so many people in that movie
Kat
(2/29/2008 5:57:39 PM): from the state (that old mtv show) as well as
other shows even haviland morris from 16 candles wa sin it
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:57:51 PM): Whoa
Kat (2/29/2008 5:58:14 PM): yah like it appeared to be most of the cast of the state in the movie
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:58:36 PM): wow
DiAnna (2/29/2008 5:59:46 PM): That is a cool cast
Kat (2/29/2008 6:02:12 PM): ok only 5 guys from the sate in the movie but still
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:03:05 PM): I've felt that way before, it's like, DUDE, why not just call it "such and such show: The movie!"
Kat
(2/29/2008 6:03:40 PM): daumaris was making me laugh on the phone for a
few last night she mentioned how jarrett adn alicia have so many pics
of their baby in the same outfit on the same boppy pillow
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:03:57 PM): LOL That's just kinda sad
Kat
(2/29/2008 6:04:06 PM): i said well maybe they thought of the babys
face as a clock and snapped a pic from every hour on the clock
Kat (2/29/2008 6:04:07 PM): lol
Kat
(2/29/2008 6:19:50 PM): ok jarrett wants overnights. he is my issue...
what about the overseas members and the ones coming in at odd hours
cause their baby is up
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:22:49 PM):
Overnights shouldn't be too bad... if they don't like what's being
played, they'll hit mute or stop. People do it to me.
Kat
(2/29/2008 6:27:38 PM): amommysworld_dotcom: we do ahve some members in
other countries redrose85: i know i have talked to a couple of them on
the nights joey has me up redrose85: i'm worried about a couple of the
mom's i know that won't listen to it....
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:28:42 PM): idk...
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:31:57 PM): let me think
DiAnna (2/29/2008 6:32:02 PM): brb, dinner

Ok...
she accused me of mental instability and of being a psycho backstabbing traitor bitch who whines constantly about her *shit*. WHO is the psycho cunt who always whines about their shit? In all of the conversations, there's only ONCE that I 'whined' about anything that
happened to me.

This was her rant (directed totally at *ME* after I stated that I felt
that she was having some PPD issues, and still hadn't completely recovered from the breakdown she ADMITS she had after she lost a pregnancy last year):
All your little comments about me how I have gone completely insane, I am more crazy or insane than ever.. however you worded it.. I have no idea where you get this stuff
from or how I have shown myself to be crazy or insane.

Umm ok is it your bipolar disorder talking?
Is it maybe your multiple personalities you claim to have all working against each other?
Are you just confusing yourself somehow?

I think all of the above.

Well I seriously have no need to ever be frriends with you again. Not after ALL the nasty things you said about me. You really have some nerve. I have in no way done anything to be deemed mean, nasty, crazy, insane, etc.

You are seriously dillusional woman.

I have to constantly be seeing or hearing about your constant whining about your bipolar,
schizophrenia, and whatever else you can come up with that day. I take it and I just
ignore it. I ask others to please just ignore it. People get really fucking tired of it at times.

Not saying they do not get mad at me for whatever reason, I am not calling myself miss perfect.

You have the nerve to sit around and talk shit about the baby I lost in june 07 and say I am crazier than ever right now because of that baby?

WHAT THE FUCK are you talking about you fucking lunatic?

I have no mental issues, I have never in my life been on meds for any sort of mental disorder, I have no issues anymore with the stillborn I had. I washed that away. No thats nto true, **** and **** washed that away for me.

I am actually pretty happy these days. Unlike you, miss depressed schizophrenic bipolar crazy pants backstabbing traitor.

Oh and how dare you sit around and act confused about why I could possibly be upset about the stuff you said and how hurt you are that I called you a backstabber and a traitor.

Heres the deal. You stay on your side of the playground..I will stay on mine.

And here's her latest (left yesterday or this morning) attack at me:

HEY WHAT'S UP YOU FUCKING FAT REDNECK CUNT. BY THE WAY WHO THE FUCK
NAMES THEIR KID BUBBA OTHER THAN A WHITE TRASH REDNECK FREAK.

I HOPE ONE OF YOUR SUICIDE THREATS BECOMES REAL AND FOLLOWS THROUGH ONE DAY.

WHAY YOU DID WAS FUCKED UP AND YOU DESERVE PAYBACK.

I ALREADY LET EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT YOU.

NOT ONLY DID ALL THE ONES FROM YOUR STAFF CHAT VOTE YOU OFF THE STAFF ON AMW, BREA DID AS WELL. IT WAS ALL VOTES TO REMOVE YOU BY ALL.

NO ONE LIKES YOUR BULLSHIT AND EVERYONE IS SICK OF YOUR FAKE MULTIPLE
PERSONALITY BIT. ENJOY THE GROUPS YOU STOLE FROM ME. GO FUCK YOUSELF.
HOPE YOU NEVER SEE 09.

I *LOVE* how she says she's already let everyone know about me. I don't know what she's said about me, but I have a feeling that this will show that she is the one that is truly mentally unstable, and not me. I am QUITE proud to say that I have been VERY stable for the last two years, since being taken off of the meds for the bipolar. yes, I've had my suicidal thoughts, but that's part and parcel of the PTSD, but none of them have lasted more than 2 minutes at most, and I've been doing quite well. Even through all the stress of when we were afraid
that we were going to be homeless, I haven't lost it, and have not had any serious issues with my depression even. I am currently on the LOWEST THERAPUTIC DOSE of my anti-depressant. And considering the amount of chronic pain I live with, too, that is nothing short of miraculous.

So, I am open for comments, people.

I hate cold

2008-12-09T11:11:00.001-08:00

It is freaking freezing in Washington (although it's not snowing yet), and I have to clean. My fibro is flaring, my adhd isn't quite under control yet (due to me effing up and telling my doc the wrong dose of my meds), my husband is STILL SLEEPING at eleven o'freaking-clock in the morning, my girlfriend is being treated like less than dirt by her less-than significant other (he was significant until last night), my sister's ex-husband is (I SWEAR!) obsessed with her, even though she freaking DIVORCED HIM *AND* has informed him that she is now dating someone new, and intends to take the relationship further with this person, my landlord has a freaking assessor (? that's not the word.... someone is coming to decide how much the house is worth) today, my mother is sick with apparently a highly contagious virus that landed her in the ER two nights ago, and the hits keep on coming! I hate my freaking life right now!

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My week last week

2008-09-21T14:55:00.000-07:00

My husband came home from work on Monday, and in the process of catching me up on his day at work, he told me to keep his (our?:) friends in mind for the next few days, because they had just gotten word that one of the guys that is on the 'crew' of their SCA ship had relapsed with his cancer, and wasn't really expected to make it. They were going to give him an experimental treatment, but if it didn't work, they only gave him two days. He passed away Wednesday morning, and the memorial was yesterday. It was hell for me. I'd met the gentleman once. He was a great man, sweet, intelligent, and the kind of person I would love to be friends with. But, it was hell on me to watch people I care about who had been friends with him for years mourning him. I went to the service primarily to support my friends, to be there for them, because I knew that they would need the moral support.

I learned a valuable lesson yesterday, however. I will hopefully never again mix an emotionally stressful day with a road trip of two-plus hours, unless I have ample room in the vehicle. I was slightly squished in the backseat of the car, with an older version of my oldest child between my husband and I. And THEN go for a long-ish (for ME) walk later in the evening.

Notice

2008-05-03T01:16:00.001-07:00

I am starting a new chapter in my life. I'll give more details when I'm more awake. But, I'm going to be making a lot of changes, and hope that the changes I'm making will make me more able to be a better wife and mother. And that they'll help me to be healthier in the short and long term.

Friday Question Yeah, I know it's Sunday

2007-12-23T18:36:00.000-08:00

How would you react if you were to learn that your mate had had a lover of the same sex before you knew each other?

Have you ever been sexually attracted to someone of the same sex?
to someone in your family?
If so, how did you deal with it?

Friday Question

2007-12-16T17:12:00.000-08:00

Friday question, these will be mass cross posted in all my blogs. Bloop, MySpace, LiveJournal, DeadJournal, everywhere. I'm posting these to make people THINK. I do want responses, though.

Today's question comes from the book titled "The Book of Questions" By Gregory Stock, PH.D

If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it?

What if, instead of an accident, the person you were engaged to were diagnosed with (for men) breast cancer, and had to have both breasts surgically removed? Or (for women) he developed prostate cancer and could no longer perform in bed?

What if they were diagnosed with a chronic illness, such as fibromyalgia, rheumetoid arthritis, lupus, or another illness that was going to make their life very difficult?

Now, discuss

Sleep deprived and freaking miserable!

2007-10-09T17:04:00.000-07:00

Part of me thinks I'm still sleep deprived from Blogathon. LOL I know it sounds insane, but I haven't gotten caught back up on my sleep since then.

I had a bunch to write tonite, but forgot what I was gonna say.

It's me

2007-09-23T12:02:00.001-07:00

I am so proud of myself

2007-07-31T02:40:00.000-07:00

I made it thru Blogathon, in one piece. Granted, I'm still a bit sleep deprived, but I'll be ok. I can't sleep tonite, big surprise. I threw my schedule off so bad with the blogathon that it's gonna take me a few days (weeks?) to get back onto a normal schedule. But, it was SO worth it!

Thanks to the people who were so sweet to support me, leaving me comments. I really appreciate it.

Love to all.

#48 This is it!

2007-07-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

I DID IT!! I made it the full 24hrs! I'm so proud of myself. Now, iffn ya'll don't mind, I'm going to bed, and going to pass out for a while!

I did it, I did it! YAY!

#47 One left after this!

2007-07-29T20:27:00.000-07:00

Wow. I've been up now for 35 hours. And I'm still going?? whoa I didn't think my body could handle that. :D Guess I'm not as old as I thought. I'm proud of myself.

This has been an awesome night. I think I wanna do it again next year, but with a lil better planning. :D No going out the day before it starts, and I'm gonna make sure I have PLENTY of Dr. Pepper to last me the night. I've missed my Pepper. :(

Hopefully next year, we won't be fighting with the bills and will have them caught up, so I can blog on one of the sites I can post from my phone. Hell, if I'd thought ahead (AND had my phone connected), I'd have done this at LJ, and been out and about, making voice posts from my phone, or at least SOME. :)

I don't regret any part of this weekend, tho. I'm REALLY REALLY amazed that my parents aren't complaining about the fact I've said once my last post in in, I'm in bed. I know I'm gonna have to take my sleeping pill tonite to get to sleep. Should only take one, tho.

I have an appt with my psych med dr tomorrow. That should be interesting. I gotta drive to Seattle to go to it. That's an ick thought. But, I'm gonna sleep tonite, and I'll be golden tomorrow.

Last night was cool and creepy at the same time, though. Being the only one up in the house all night, with my fear of the dark was odd. That's a big part of why I kept my smoking to a minimum. I didn't wanna go out in the dark by myself. :D I'm such a chicken. I know, I know, it's the PTSD causing it, so it's not that I'm a chicken, but it still bugs the hell out of me that I'm almost 30 years old, and I'm STILL terrified of the dark. Great way to help my kids get over it, isn't it? I'm a GREAT role model.

Ok. That's my entry. I'm gonna go make myself an Irish Coffee. With REAL Bailey's Irish Cream. I think I've earned it.

Faces of Blogathon 2007 "B" schedule

2007-07-29T20:11:00.000-07:00

Here's MY mug!!!

#45 Last three!!!

2007-07-29T19:56:00.000-07:00

There are only THREE MORE ENTRIES after this one for Blogathon. Wow. I can't believe it's almost over.

I know this entry is really short, but I'm hurting and really starting to lose what little bit of brains I had left.

Two more after this!

#44 Four left!

2007-07-29T19:30:00.000-07:00

Wow, I can't believe we're so close to being done! YAY! I'm not sure what I'm gonna do after this. I know what I'm doing as soon as I"m done typing. I'm gonna walk outside and have a smoke. I've been doing SO good. I've had 2 since I started Blogathon.

And the TV just completely trashed everything i was thinking. Oh, well. C'est la vie.

#43 FIVE MORE!

2007-07-29T18:55:00.000-07:00

Wow, only FIVE MORE! I'm so happy!!!

The last little bit will go quicker, 'cause I'm talking to my lil brother on Yahoo, and he's always been good at keeping me awake and going. I'm tired, REALLY tired, but I'm doing ok. I'm really sure I can make it the next couple of hours. This is going to work! I thought i was gonna have to drop out at the halfway point, but I'm still here, and I think I'm gonna make it! YAY!

#42

2007-07-29T18:23:00.000-07:00

Dinner time! My darling Daddy grilled pork chops, and made au gratin potatoes. YUMMY I love my Daddy!

Once I've eaten dinner, I'll be doing a LOT better. This is the first REAL MEAL I've had since Thursday. Yesterday wasn't a good day with food. I just didn't feel like eating.

It didn't help that it was a Relay day, and I had no money to eat with.

Ok, I gotta post this, 'cause otherwise it's gonna be late, and I'm not gonna get to eat.

# 41!!! SEVEN more entries!

2007-07-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm getting there. I was going to post a new karaoke vid, but didn't get it recorded. I suck, don't I? LOL I was going to record the theme song for Bob the Builder with the kids, but they wimped out on me. I'm bummed. It sounded like it'd be fun.

Kids' sperm donor is on the phone. This one's short! Sorry!

#40 more of me singing

2007-07-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

#39 A video of a really bad (but FUNNY) song

2007-07-29T16:32:00.001-07:00

#38 Ok, now this ticks me off....

2007-07-29T16:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, a lot of people are aware of baby Kaleb Schwade, who was shaken by his daycare provider and ended up in the hospital for the longest time. He's home, btw. YAY!

Well, apparently, some kid on MySpace decided that this was an interesting way to get money and free stuff, because Kaleb's mommy hasn't hidden the fact that people have donated/given stuff to their family. So, this kid gets the bright idea to scam people at MySpace with a "Five day old baby who was shaken and is in the hospital fighting for her life"

He's scammed pictures of babies from all over the internet, put fake pictures of a set of parents up, and is just waiting. When people ask questions, he gets defensive. I'm thinking part of how he got caught is one of the people on his friends list, I just saw the comments, is a friend of the mom of one of the babies whose picture he stole, and she recognized the baby in the picture. Dumb ass.

Link to this idiot's myspace is www.myspace.com/jacob_collins26

How could anyone do something like that? Use another family's suffering and pain for their own gain??? It's sick.

#37 Another news article

2007-07-29T15:31:00.000-07:00

Ok, in my opinion, it's freaking RIDICULOUS that it took us going to WAR before someone got their head out of their ass to realize that the VA system needed work!

Panel urges health-care overhaul for disabled vets
President's commission says the system is beyond 'patching'

By ROB HOTAKAINEN and LESLEY CLARK
McClatchy-Tribune
WASHINGTON — A presidential commission Wednesday recommended an urgent overhaul of the federal system that cares for disabled military veterans, including new "quality of life" payments to compensate for injuries.

The bipartisan panel also recommended better diagnosis and treatment of brain injuries and guaranteed care for post-traumatic stress syndrome for all soldiers returning from the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. Up to 20 percent of those who have returned from Iraq have reported symptoms of PTSD, an anxiety disorder caused by reaction to traumatic events.

"We don't recommend merely patching the system, as has been done in the past," concluded the nine-member panel, headed by former Kansas Republican Sen. Bob Dole and former Health and Human Services Secretary Donna Shalala.

The report came as a unanimous Senate passed legislation that tackles some of the same topics, including boosting spending on the two injuries the commission called "common conditions of the current conflicts."

President Bush, who met with the commission at the White House before it voted on the final report, called the recommendations "very interesting."

After an afternoon run on the South Lawn with two veterans he'd met at Walter Reed Army Medical Center, Bush said he'd told the Department of Defense and Veterans Affairs to look at the recommendations, "take them seriously and to implement them, so that we can say with certainty that any soldier who has been hurt will get the best possible care and treatment that this government can offer."

The commission said its recommendations would result in the first major overhaul of the disability system for veterans in more than 50 years.

Among its other recommendations, the commission said that spouses and parents of seriously injured soldiers should qualify for six-month leaves under an extended Family and Medical Leave Act. Two-thirds of the injured service members reported that family members or close friends had stayed with them for an extended time while they were hospitalized, and one in five gave up jobs to do so.

The panel said too many disabled soldiers were getting "lost in the system" and that problems in coordinating care were far too common.

#36 We're getting there!

2007-07-29T14:51:00.000-07:00

Well, hubby just got up, so I might be able to talk him into an entry or two here, so I can take care of SHTUFF, like propping my feet up, but if he doesn't want to, then i'm here for the long haul. :)

I'm doing ok, I guess. A bit grumpy at the kids, but all in all ok. :) Frustrated with myself, because apparently at some point between signing up for Blogathon and it STARTING, I changed one of my blogs, and FORGOT! So I was blogging here, and this blog didn't show up. I'm a huge dorkarito! It's all fixeded now. Yay for frykitty. She's my new hero. :D

Ok. Time to go talk to my hubband. I misseded him last night. And yes, I know I'm talking like a baby. I'm keeping myself entertained. Very easy to do when I'm this tired.

#35 News article

2007-07-29T14:38:00.000-07:00

Ok, this is entry number 35. I gotta make it to 48. *IF* I'm doing my math properly, that means I have 13 more entries. I might be able to do that.

I REMEMBERED SOMETHING I WAS GONNA WRITE ABOUT!!!

Hee, now I just gotta go find the article again.

Ok, here it is!

Fla. man, 88, becomes an Eagle Scout

Sun Jul 29, 6:27 AM ET

FORT MYERS, Fla. - More than a half-century after he finished the requirements to earn the rank, an 88-year-old man was honored as an Eagle Scout on Saturday, making him possibly the oldest person to ever collect the honor.

Walter Hart couldn't become an Eagle Scout at the time he earned the rank because his service in World War II got in the way.

"I've been looking forward to this for a long time," said Hart, who lives in a retirement center in nearby Lehigh Acres.

Scout officials say he may be the oldest person to ever earn the honor.

Hart joined the Cub Scouts in 1928 in Malden, Mass., and earned 23 merit badges during his years as a Boy Scout, scouting officials said. Of the 120 merit badges available, 21 must be earned to qualify for Eagle Scout rank.

It all got set aside when he joined the Navy during World War II and served two years aboard the USS Alfred A. Cunningham.

Last year, he rediscovered some of his old Boy Scout memorabilia, including documents that showed he completed the requirements for his Eagle Scout rank. He contacted the Scouts about receiving his award.

"I think this was something that was always on his mind, but every time he went to go do it, something else came up," daughter Elizabeth Gatturna said. "I know how hard he's tried to get to this point."

Only about 5 percent of all Boy Scouts earn the rank of Eagle Scout. Since 1912, nearly 1.9 million Eagles have been awarded, but the recipients' ages aren't recorded, Boy Scout officials said.

"I'd be pretty surprised if anyone older has ever become an Eagle Scout," said Margie Byers, spokeswoman for the Southwest Florida Council, Boy Scouts of America.

I think that is the coolest thing in the world. :)

#34 Time's speeding back up

2007-07-29T13:52:00.000-07:00

Well, you know the shoes I mentioned Chrissy having on in my last entry? Well, now all THREE kids have them. They're LEMMINGS I TELL YOU! If one has something, the other two follow suit rather quickly.

I guess I should feed myself, huh? I nibbled on Wheat Thins over night. I think that may be part of why my legs and feet are so swollen up right now. Ick. But, on a good note, I didn't smoke much last night. I had ONE SMOKE over the course of the night, from the time Ashe went to work at 9 until AFTER he got home at 7. Matter of fact, I just went out to smoke before my last entry. So, I'm doing really good. I think I might be able to quit here soon. That would be cool. It would save us SO MUCH money! Well, maybe not that much, since I'm not smoking a pack a day or two anymore (that's one pack every day to every two days, not one to two packs a day, btw). I'm down to about a pack a WEEK! YAY ME!

Mikey's back upstairs here with me. He's playing PS2. I've got the TV on behind me, and I'm gonna end up rewinding the show I'm listening to, 'cause I kinda wanted to watch it. Oh, well.

That's all I can come up with for now.

#33 Talking on the phone

2007-07-29T13:22:00.000-07:00

I think this is like the first or second time I've gotten to talk to him since he was up here. Poor thing, he's having a hell of a time right now. He's trying to move out of the apartment he was living in, and move back into his parents' house, but there's all kinds of drama around that. I feel so bad for him!

Then Chrissy came up and showed me her "shoes" she has on. They're 2" thick foam that she's tied to her feet w/ pink plastic string. Goofball! But, it's cute.

#32 The promised video

2007-07-29T12:53:00.000-07:00

May take a bit to finish processing at YouTube

#31 Ooh! Something to write about

2007-07-29T12:29:00.000-07:00

My mom is a breast cancer survivor. She finished her chemo the end of Summer last year. 31 Aug was her last treatment, to be exact. Well, she lost her hair, like we expected. And then, when it grew back, she had these wonderful curls. Adorable, really. She cut her hair today, because it was just at a bad length, and the curls were falling out (they were chemo curls, and not permanent) and cut off all the curls. :( I'll miss her curls. They looked good.

Next entry, I'll post me playing with the jack-in-the-box Ashe got me. I love my hubby! He's so sweet to me!

#30 Another quiz thing

2007-07-29T12:15:00.001-07:00

You scored 10 % Dark Side, 50 % Light Side, 10 % Scoundrel and 50 % Diplomat!

Thank you for taking the Star Wars Character test.

To interpret your results: If you scored highest in Dark Side, you are a Darksider. If you scored highest in Light Side, you are a Lightsider, etcetera etcetera. I'm sorry this part isn't more impressive...but it's my first quiz.

Link: The Star Wars Character Test written by Sarah-Leia on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

#29 I'm still here!

2007-07-29T11:26:00.000-07:00

Let's see, it's 11:30am, and I've been at this since 9 last night.... We're into the 14th hour now. Cool.

I feel like my head is wrapped in cotton balls. For goodness sake, do NOT ask me to make an important decision today. I'm afraid of what I might choose! LOL

I guess I've scared the kids away, being grumpy. They were up here for a while, but they've all disappeared. I'm guessing they scampered downstairs where Grammy's in a better mood than Mommy is. :) Can't say as I blame them.

Nothing much to say yet. Here's to Hour 15!

#28 What's my spirit animal

2007-07-29T10:55:00.000-07:00

Your Score: The Deer

Here's your results! Your spirit animal has a Nobility ranking of 10 out of 18.

Your spirit animal is the deer. They are a respectable and beautiful animal. They are fearful and timid at times and are considered as having only slightly above average nobility and wisdom. The deer is a fairly common guardian, and you can feel proud knowing it will serve you well.

***Wondering how this animal was chosen for you? These questions were carefully thought out to see how important you hold certain virtues such as: humanism, self-knowledge, rationalism, the love of freedom and other somewhat Hellenic ideals. Some of the questions were very subtle. Your score was then matched with an animal of corresponding nobility. However, you shouldn't think this was a right/wrong sort of test, but more of an idealistic values test. It's ok to not hold these values, you'll just get an animal spirit of lower stature if you do!***

Link: The What is Your Spirit Animal Test written by FindingEros on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

#27 Still going

2007-07-29T10:32:00.001-07:00

Your Score: The Healthy Rebel

You scored 61% Rebelious!

All right, way to go, you seem to have a healthy degree of rebeliousness without being a menace to society. You are a free thinker who doesn't follow orders blindly.

Pat yourself on the back if you feel like it.

Link: The How much of a rebel are you Test written by NaughtyKenn on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

#26 Fun little thingy

2007-07-29T09:55:00.000-07:00

You are 68% Real Princess

Congratulations, Princess! Surprised? Real Princesses are not spoiled brats who simply order minions around and get their way all the time. A Real Princesse is neither oppressed nor oppressive. She is intelligent and giving, concerning herself less with issues of the palace and more with the people surrounding it. She knows how to treat others as well as herself, and always sets a fine example of true humanity.
The key to being a true Princess is having the grace to accept the fact that you can't always have everything you want, even though you may deserve it. It's about self-esteem and setting your own standards concerning how you want to be treated and how you behave. It's about knowing when to make demands and when to be flexible.
Of course it's also about tiaras, beautiful dresses, and the wait for a worthy Prince to sweep you off your feet! When you balance a giving and open spirit with personal needs and visions you reach princesshood.
Now go find a minion to kiss your feet. seriously.

Link: The Am I a Real Princess? Test written by brandy7 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

#25 Blogthing!

2007-07-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

You Are 43% Scary

You're a pretty normal, nice girl... but you definitely have your scary moments.
As long as you acknowledge them and apologize, you'll probably keep your guy around.

Do You Scare Off Men?

#24 HALFWAY POINT

2007-07-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm halfway there. I've made it this far, how much more can I do? I know some who've dropped out already. I have to admit, I'm debating it. But, for now, I'm still going.

I've gotten a total of THREE comments since Blogathon started. Two from an online friend who was on the "A" schedule, and one from another blogathonner. I feel like I'm doing this for no reason. Like nobody is even noticing that I'm here.

This seems to be a theme in my life. Like I do all this stuff, but no one ever notices me. It's something I've talked about with my therapist. Do I need validation to feel that what I'm doing is worth it? Part of me says YES to that. That I really really want the validation. But, then, a big part ofme says NO, that even if not another soul in the world notices what I'm doing, I'm doing this for a good reason. But, still.... I dunno.

#23 Kids are up

2007-07-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

Well, the kids are up. All three of them. Mikey's playing PS2, Chrissy and Bubba are watching TV. And I'm debating throwing in the towel... I don't want to, but I had to take my contacts out, and now I'm blind. I'm tired, I'm hurting really bad. But, I know if I throw in the towel, I'll feel like a massive failure. But, getting sleep deprived doesn't do my bipolar any good, either.

Oy, now I'm gonna have to ramrod kids, and keep them from destroying the house.

#22 This was interesting to watch (same diarist as I mentioned in my last post, but this is far more interesting)

2007-07-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

#21 Reading an interesting post elsewhere

2007-07-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

I'm in the middle of a VERY interesting diary entry over at Bloopdiary.com. It's discussing whether Wicca and Witchcraft are or are not different things. I'm about halfway thru it right now. I'll probably post bits of it for my next entry here. And i definitely MUST friend this person at Bloop. She's intelligent, mature (gotta be, she sez she got involved w/ Witchcraft in the 60's), and, well, obviously following a similar path to mine.

I like interesting, intelligent people. I am one, most of the time. Just not last night and probably won't be all that intelligent sounding today, either. :D

On an upnote, Ashe is home, and sleeping right now. I told him I might have him put up a couple entries for me later, so I can catch a nap. There's hope yet.

I'm starting to hurt, so I'm gonna wrap this one up and get some painkillers and a drink.

See ya'll in half an hour or so!

#21 What to write, what to write?

2007-07-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

Well, it's now almost 7am, and Ashe should be home anytime. YAY! I'm getting miserable, because my feet and ankles are so swollen it's painful. When I washed my face, and took my makeup off, I got some stuff in my eye that's killing my contact lens. But, the upside is, I'm showered, in comfy clothes (read PJs), and washed my hair. I'm good. :D And, I'm watching Jake 2.0 between entries. I'm in great shape! LOL Oh, and I'm not tired right now. :D

I think I'm going to do a list of things I think about when I need to remind myself why I'm not going to kill myself. There's a reason one of the charities I'm blogging for is the Bipolar Depression Support Alliance.

- Music, one of the most important non-physical things in the world to me. Without music, my life would be empty.

- My husband. The man I love more than any other adult man on the face of the earth. Yes, my husband outranks my daddy here.

- My kids. Three VERY IMPORTANT things. Yeah, I often think they'd be better off without me, but then I realize that without me, they're either going to be raised by their sperm donors, or my mother. And I don't want either of those options.

- My friends. The people who care about me because they WANT TO. I don't think many of them truly know how much that means to me.

It would be a much longer list if I listed each person I think of individually, which is what I do when I'm in that moment, but that would take me an hour to write, and i don't have that much time.

#20 and I'm still here!

2007-07-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

Well, we're at 9 1/2 hrs. Wow. I'm doing ok. Took some power naps in the early morning hours, and now I'm feeling ok. Got a second wind. Hopefully I'll be able to do this. I *KNOW* I'm gonna crash HARD when I go to bed tonight. It's gonna be UGLY! But, I'm still hanging in there. 4 more entries, and we'll be at the halfway point. That's a good thing. :)

I didn't shower yet. Should do that once I'm done here. I got caught up reading some stuff. Maybe I'll get some ideas about what to write about for the day while I'm drowning my sorrows?

Well, we're off here to go wake myself up. I'll see ya'll in half an hour!

#19 and I'm still alive

2007-07-29T05:51:00.001-07:00

Wow, I'm 1/3 of the way there. And waking up again. I think it has something to do with the sun coming up. :) Maybe I'm not the night owl I think I am. I used to be.

It is almost 0600, which means Ashe gets off in half an hour, should be home in an hour. YAY! That will make life a bit easier. I don't know if I'm enjoying this or not. Eh, either way, I'm hanging in there. I don't wanna get disqualified. I wanna do this.

I think, maybe, after this post, I'm gonna take a quick shower and everything, to help me wake up. Then, it's back to finish an ep of Jake 2.0 that I've been trying to watch on my DVR for WEEKS! LOL That helps keep me awake, too. Don't know why I didn't think to turn the TV on earlier. 'Cause I'm a HUGE dorkus!

Still nothing earth-shatteringly interesting to write about. Probably grab another Friday Five from LJ eventually. At least it gives me something to blog about. Something semi-interesting. So far, I think all I've managed to do is whine that I'm cold and tired. Not good.

Ok, time to copy and cross-post. I'm SO lazy!

Oh! Post #11

2007-07-29T05:26:00.001-07:00

Post number 11 is here, I just pulled it out of my drafts, because I noticed I had a really old draft of an article my little sister-in-law wrote, so I figured I'd post it as my 11th post, but it's buried in the "back" of my blog. It's there, honest, and it's numbered. I thought if I posted it tonite, it would timestamp/date for today, and show up today. Apparently, it showed up back when i first went to post it. :( I spent 20 minutes trying to figure out where my 2330 post got to.

# 18 Another BlogThings

2007-07-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

You Are a Champagne Woman

A true mystery, no one can quite figure you out...
That is, until you start drinking. Then you tend to let loose.
You're fun to drink with, but it definitely takes you a few drinks to loosen up.
You prefer to date a man who likes the finer things in life... like a five star dinner with that champagne.

What Kind of Drinking Woman Are You?

#17 Friday Five from LJ

2007-07-29T04:53:00.000-07:00

1. You're holding a dinner party and can invite three famous people from the past or present; who would they be?
Oh, dang, when I first read this, I didn't see the famous part. :( Umm, famous people...
1) Helen Keller, because I've been fascinated with her for years. She led such an interesting life.
2) A man who SHOULD be famous, but isn't, his name is on the patent for the color television tube, and was also nearly the CO of the first nuclear submarine. And one of my favorite people in the entire world (and one lousy dinner party wouldn't be long enough with him!) Chandler C Jackson II, my grandfather.
3) Randy Owen of the band Alabama, because I love their music. :)
4) Reba McIntyre
5) Princess Diana

2. You have the opportunity to question someone about something you've always wanted to know and receive a truthful answer; what would your question be? I would ask my mother to tell me about her past. All of it.

3. If you could change one thing in your life, what would it be?
My laziness
4. If you could save other people's lives by completing an act that would lead to your own death, would you do it?
Hell Yes
5. Would you commit murder if you knew that you could get away with it? I'm a domestic violence, rape, and incest survivor. Hell YES I'd commit murder if I thought I could get away with it!

#16 Blogthings fun

2007-07-29T04:25:00.000-07:00

You Are a Husky Puppy

Sweet, affectionate, and docile.
But when you see a cat or chicken, it's kill kill kill!!!

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

#15 I'm warming up

2007-07-29T03:56:00.001-07:00

But I'm still cold. Not AS cold, mind you, but still cold.

Another short nap, this time using my cell phone to wake my arse up. Once my heartrate slows back down, I'll be golden! But, man, I'm TIRED!!!!!

I can't believe I can't think of anything to talk about. Normally I can talk for hours about absolutely nothing. Now, i'm having problems coming up with ONE LOUSY THING to talk about every half an hour. I'm SO pathetic!

#14... mini nap and coffee

2007-07-29T03:07:00.000-07:00

But I'm still freezing! Sat here at the computer, grabbed a pillow, wrapped up in my blanket, and took a mini nap. We'll see how that helps me. I'm still cold as all hell, but at least I've gotten a bit of rest. I think I'm gonna do it again after this post.

This cold thing is bugging the hell out of me, tho. I don't like being cold. And I'm REALLY cold right now. Grrrrrr.......

I'm thinking if I can even make it halfway at this point, I'll be doing damn good. Considering that will be the 24 hr mark for me, being awake. And I'm halfway there (so, I guess that means I'm a quarter of the way done! COOL!) Wow, I'm on hr 7 already. 17 more to go. Ugh.... Just look at where I've been, not how much further I have to go, right? Right.

13 I'm still awake, I think

2007-07-29T02:57:00.001-07:00

I'm only in the sixth hour, and I'm already so tired it's pathetic! This is what I get for going out and doing STUFF today, knowing I had blogathon tonite.

I'm sitting here, freezing, I'm gonna go shut the sliding glass door once I'm done with this entry, and wishing it was late afternoon, so I could hand over the computer to Ashe and make him write some stuff for a while. That'll never happen! LOL

What happened to the days when I could stay up for 24 hrs? Well, actually, I'm gonna be going on 36 when I crash tomorrow nite. Got up around 9am this morning, and believe me! The kids are going to bed AT NINE TOMORROW, so i can go to sleep. I gotta go to Seattle on Monday, so I GOTTA GETS MY SLEEP tomorrow nite.

Hmmm... apparently, when I'm not thinking about what I'm gonna write, I'm writing longer entries. And so far, they make sense to me. :) At least right now they do. Come the next time I'm good and awake, they might not. :D

Ok, off to write in the other blog. This is fun. I'm just crossposting most of the time, but, hey, it's the thought that counts!

#12 Can you believe this?

2007-07-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

Removal of banner, activist protested
ACLU decries action taken on July Fourth at Byrd Park event

Wednesday, Jul 18, 2007 - 12:08 AM
By JOE MACENKA
TIMES-DISPATCH STAFF WRITER

Richmond police and parks officials are in trouble with the ACLU of Virginia for removing a woman from a Fourth of July event in Byrd Park for carrying a political banner.

Rain Burroughs, who said she was driven to a different area of the sprawling park and held in a police cruiser with her 7-year-old daughter until the fireworks display ended, was not charged with any crime.

Police said they removed her from the Dogwood Dell area at the request of city parks employees. A parks official said the banner, which made an indirect reference to the impeachment of Vice President Dick Cheney, disrupted the patriotic theme of the concert at Dogwood Dell and the fireworks.

"This has problems throughout," said Kent Willis, the American Civil Liberties Union of Virginia's executive director. "It's as if the police did everything wrong from the moment they heard about this."

Richmond police spokeswoman Karla Peters said she was limited in how she could respond to the matter, in part because the department's internal-affairs unit is looking into it.

"That information remains internal regarding personnel," Peters said.

In addition to the free-speech and detainment issues raised by the ACLU, a Richmond woman complained to the police department about the manner in which officers responded to the area near the Dogwood Dell stage to take away Burroughs and her daughter, Summer.

Christine Dorsey said several officers in cruisers, with lights flashing and sirens tweaking, and officers on horseback were traveling at speeds that seemed dangerously high given the large crowds in the park.

"And especially when it turned out that it was no big deal," Dorsey said.

. . .

Burroughs, a Richmond resident who describes herself as a peace activist, went to the park with her daughter and her boss, Charlie Holliday. Burroughs said she and Holliday each held one end of the banner, which was 20 to 25 feet long and contained the word "Impeach," along with House Speaker Nancy Pelosi's Washington office phone number and the term "HR 333," which refers to a resolution in the House of Representatives to impeach Cheney.

Burroughs said people in the crowd cheered as she and Holliday carried the banner. Then the police arrived, in cars and on horses.

"I didn't want to leave, and they wanted me to leave, and I said, 'No,'" she said.

Burroughs said Holliday agreed to leave the area. She, however, was placed in the front seat of a police cruiser. Police required her to be separated from her daughter, who was placed in the back seat. The banner went in the trunk.

After being detained in the cruiser in a different part of the park until the fireworks ended, Burroughs said, she and her daughter were released and saw some acquaintances, who gave them a ride home.

Burroughs said neither she nor her daughter was handcuffed, but both were frightened.

"I said, 'Summer, were you as scared as I was?' She said, 'Mommy, I was more scared,'" Burroughs said.

. . .

Christy Everson, a spokeswoman for the Richmond Department of Parks, Recreation and Community Facilities, said she was unsure who called police to have the banner removed from the patriotic festivities at Dogwood Dell.

"Obviously, you don't want that kind of disruption in the middle of a performance at that location," Everson said.

The ACLU's Willis said he has referred the matter to the group's legal team. The ACLU is still gathering details and is waiting to speak with Burroughs before deciding how to proceed, he said.

"Police clearly overreacted to the situation. As far as we can tell, Ms. Burroughs did not pose a threat to anyone," Willis said. "She clearly had a First Amendment right to be at the event with her daughter."

There also is a provision in the Richmond City Code, section 66-179, which details "permitted conduct." It states, in part: "Acts authorized as an exercise of a person's constitutional right to picket, protest, or speak and acts authorized by a permit issued by the city shall not constitute unlawful activity under this division."

Burroughs, who has not filed a complaint with the police, said she intends to help the ACLU pursue the matter.

She said she believes the anti-Cheney nature of her banner made her a target.

#10 Now I'm singing

2007-07-29T01:19:00.000-07:00

#9 STUPID COMPUTER!

2007-07-29T00:55:00.000-07:00

I was getting ready to record my video for this entry, and my STUPID COMPUTER RESTARTED ITSELF!!!! I'm SO FRUSTRATED!

Sometimes, I really hate computers. They really suck sometimes. But, I don't know what I'd do without mine.

I love my computer, really I do. Just sometimes, it drives me bonkers!

#8 Wow, time's going fast

2007-07-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

And I have a lizard on my head. :)

Before Bubba decided he was going to go back downstairs with my parents, he put this little toy lizard he got today on my head, and I haven't taken it off. Why should I? It's not like it's hurting anything, or I'm going anywhere. :) And he's happy.

I'm fixing to caffeinate myself. I've got some coffee brewed, just haven't gotten around to pouring any. I think I'm going to before long. I'm tired, but not really tired. At least not physically. Mentally, on the other hand? Eh, I'm not doing my best. Which makes me mad and frustrates me. I guess I am physically tired. Maybe during the day tomorrow, I'll see if a friend will make a couple entries for me, so I can take a quick nap. I'm already thinking sleep, and it's only been 3 1/2 hrs. I'm so WEAK! LOL

Wouldn't be so bad if Ashe weren't working tonite. I'm bummed about that. I hate his work nights. I don't sleep well to start with, and now, since I'm staying up all night, it would be really nice to know that he's there, or out here keeping me company. :( Oh, well, life goes on.

Well, I'm gonna finish this entry up, and then go over to singsnap.com and start singing, so I can put a video of me making an idiot of myself up in my next post.

Later!

#7 More poems

2007-07-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

In the Darkness

For my Shadow

I close my eyes and there you are
Waiting for me
In the shadows and
Darkness of my mind

I hear you
Calling out to me
Willing me to join you
To be with you
But I am not ready
I fear the Dark

I see you in the Faces of
Those around me
Those who wish me to
Save myself from you

I feel you reaching out to me
Pulling me to you
Pulling me with you
I am ready
I am yours

This one I wrote a few years ago. Not much of a story behind it.

Well, it looks like I have some company for a while. Bubba fell asleep on the way home from Relay for Life tonite, and got a nap from 6-6:30 until about 11. So, I have company for a while. I'm not complaining. I like the company. :) Maybe he'll keep me awake for a while. I know his mouth will. He talks non-stop. That's a three-year-old for you.

#6 Poetry- mine!

2007-07-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

I'm early with this post, so I have to go in and edit and write more to it. : )

These two poems are my own writing. The first one, I wrote about the man (and I use that term loosely) who fathered my youngest son, Bubba. I got involved with him when my marriage to my ex-husband had fallen apart, and we were separated. We had planned on getting married, until I found out that he was cheating on me, which was part of what had ended my marriage. I was, understandably, crushed. As the poem says, I gave him everything I had to give (and then some). After our relationship had ended, I met another man. The man who is now my husband. While we were planning our wedding, this poem came to me.

Love and Trust- Version two

You said that you would love me
You said you'd never leave
You said we'd be forever
I gave my heart, my soul, my love
You threw it all away
You destroyed me
He came into my life
And saw what you had done
He put me back together
He held me while I cried
Told me that he cared
He said you were a fool
That I was a miracle
He told me I 'd be whole again
He held me
Until I was strong enough to try again
He waited for me
And told me of his heart's desire
I saw that he was true
I think that I can trust him
More than I ever trusted you

AND

For Me

When will I learn
to live my life
for myself and not
for others?

When will I remember
that my life still
is my own,
not theirs to live

Why don't I take
my life back
for myself
from them

This poem I wrote about my relationship with my mother. In many ways, I think it speaks for itself.

# 5 Mindless rambling

2007-07-28T22:56:00.000-07:00

Normally, I'm an intelligent, well-written individual. Tonight, however, I feel like my brain has turned to mush, and I'm pretty useless. This is incredibly frustrating to me. I had hoped to be at my best tonight for Blogathon. I find myself being a total moron with no idea what I'm going to write about. :(

However, the surfing i'm doing to keep myself going is entertaining. I've found a site that has a bunch of psych humor on it, and it's been a lot of fun for about the last 45 mins. The jokes I posted in my last entry came from that site.

Later, I'm gonna be doing some online karaoke. That should be fun and break up the monotony. Especially if I choose songs that mean something to me. That will give me the entry (the video of the song) and some written stuff, such as why I chose that song.

I'll also post some of my poetry, since I have had some new stuff rattling around in my head for the past few days.

#4 Some jokes

2007-07-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

What is the difference between a psychiatrist and a psychologist?

If you say to a psychiatrist "I hate my mother," he will ask "Why do you say that?" while a psychologist will say "Thank you for sharing that with us."

Q. Why do psychiatrists give their patients shock treatment?

A. To prepare them for the bill

If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill herself, is it

considered a hostage situation?

You know, this is a very good question!

After just a few years of marriage, filled with constant arguments, a young man and his wife decided the only way to save their marriage was to try therapy. They had been at each others throats for some time and felt that this was their last straw.

When they arrived at the therapist's office, the therapist jumped right in and opened the floor fordiscussion. "What seems to be the problem?" Immediately, the husband held his long face down without anything to say. On the other hand, the wife began talking 90 miles and hour describing all the wrongs within their marriage.

After 5 - - 10 - - 15 minutes of listening to the wife, the therapist went over to her, picked her up by her shoulders, kissed her passionately for several minutes, and sat her back down. Afterwards, the wife sat there - speechless.

He looked over at the husband who was staring in disbelief at what had happened. The therapist spoke to the husband, "Your wife NEEDS that at least twice a week!"

The husband scratched his head and replied, "I can have her here on Tuesdays and Thursdays."

Number 3

2007-07-28T22:00:00.000-07:00

Wow, time's flying. Granted, it's only been 2 hrs, but still! :)

I'm trying to think of what I should write about tonite, I had an idea yesterday, but didn't write it down. So, of course I forgot it! LOL

I'm reading the blogs of some friends who are participating today, and getting ideas from them. If all else fails, there's always blogthings, okcupid, and the other quiz sites I use from time to time to do some fun stuff with. :) I can spend HOURS at those sites.

I'll probably do a post about Petra Luna's war on abuse tonite, too.

I know, I'm not writing anything interesting yet. Once the kids are in bed, and it's just me, my friends on IM, and my music, I should be able to think.

#2 Sunburned!

2007-07-28T21:07:00.000-07:00

Well, apparently I got sunburned today. The ONE DAY that we go somewhere and do something during the day, and of COURSE I forget to put sunscreen on. I *NEVER* forget sunscreen! I feel so stupid. Bubba got burned, too. His lil cheeks are all pink. I feel like such a bad Mommy.

We went to the Whaling Days festival in Silverdale. That was cool. I wanted to go during the day this weekend, because there's an Episcopal church in the area that's doing Vacation Bible School, and, even tho Ashe and I aren't Christian, we feel that the kids should be allowed to choose what path they're going to follow. So, now that Mikey's asking questions, we're going to expose him to different religions. Starting with the denomination I was raised in. Partly for *MY* comfort factor. Partly, because I'm more familiar with it. Next, we'll look at taking him to the church Ashe grew up in. Well, not the exact CHURCH, mind you (an awfully long drive for a Sunday.... considering we're in WASHINGTON, and that church is in ALABAMA!!! LOL).

I guess I'll post some pics later. Gotta write in the other blog I'm running for blogathon.

AH! I'm LATE!

2007-07-28T21:02:00.000-07:00

I was logged in, and ready to make my first Blogathon post, and LOST TRACK OF TIME!

I'm such a ditz!

I've been looking forward to participating in Blogathon this year. It's a great way (read, easy!) to make some money for a charity that I care about (or I care about what they're raising money for!) I care about RAINN, tho, because I'm not only a rape survivor (twice), but I'm also an incest survivor. I wish I'd known about RAINN when it happened.

Ok, this is a short entry, but I'm working TWO BLOGS for this.

Blogathon

2007-07-27T11:36:00.000-07:00

Holy cripes! I'm going to be staying up for 24 hours tomorrow, starting at 9pm (when Ashe goes to work) and participating in Blogathon. I'm trying to come up with something to do. I have TWO blogs going (people are telling me that I'm insane for this), so I have to come up with 96 things to write. Hrm..... Other bloggers are doing things like online karaoke, which is a thought. I'd just have to record a bunch today and during the day on Sunday, so I don't wake the house up. Don't know that I have that many songs I know, either. I can write my poetry, I've had a few poems running in my head the past couple of days. Pics of the kids? I dunno. I'm thinking. Possibly some current events stuff, and of course, talking about my causes, and why they're important to me.

If anyone has any suggestions, hit me up!

I know I don't write here often

2007-06-24T19:45:00.000-07:00

I have about 6 blogs I use. This one tends to get forgotten occasionally. :(

Well, hubby and I have been married for 8 months now. Wow, it doesn't seem like it's been that long. I couldn't be happier. I was happy with us just living together, but I wanted the security of us being married. Knowing that if something happened to me, that he would be here for the kids. Even if he *IS* just their step-dad, that still gives him some legal rights to them. I don't want them going to their biological dads. I don't want them split up if I can help it.

My princessa turns *6* this Friday. Where in the hell has THAT time gone? Seems like just a few months ago she was a baby. Now, she's graduated from kindergarten, and we're facing her being in FIRST GRADE next year. She's turning SIX in FIVE DAYS!!! She wants to watch cheerleading competitions on tv, and is just growing up on me. Where did my BABY go??

#11 (this is an entry I found in my drafts... why not use it now?)Panel review for 2003 Songfest - Lifestyle

2007-04-01T16:30:00.000-07:00

Panel review for 2003 Songfest - Lifestyle

Shina (my wonderful little sister-in-law) wrote this one. :D

The insanity which is me

Been waay too long. I've been over at wordpress recently

Getting healthy

Busy busy busy, as always

Tired, so tired

I guess since I've linked to FB, I should write here now, huh?

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Thoughts for today

SHOPPING LIST!!!

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Totally AWESOME giveaway!!!!

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Today's stuff

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Flickr

Crazy-driving person's site was hacked, Google has it listed as an 'attack site' and who does she blame??

Searched for myself

More from the crazy-driving person

This woman has driven me batty for the last time

I hate cold

My week last week

Notice

Friday Question *Yeah, I know it's Sunday*

Friday Question

Sleep deprived and freaking miserable!

It's me

I am so proud of myself

#48 This is it!

#47 One left after this!

Faces of Blogathon 2007 "B" schedule

#45 Last three!!!

#44 Four left!

#43 FIVE MORE!

#42

# 41!!! SEVEN more entries!

#40 more of me singing

#39 A video of a really bad (but FUNNY) song

#38 Ok, now this ticks me off....

#37 Another news article

#36 We're getting there!

#35 News article

#34 Time's speeding back up

#33 Talking on the phone

#32 The promised video

#31 Ooh! Something to write about

#30 Another quiz thing

You scored 10 % Dark Side, 50 % Light Side, 10 % Scoundrel and 50 % Diplomat!

#29 I'm still here!

#28 What's my spirit animal

Your Score: The Deer

Here's your results! Your spirit animal has a Nobility ranking of 10 out of 18.

#27 Still going

Your Score: The Healthy Rebel

You scored 61% Rebelious!

#26 Fun little thingy

You are 68% Real Princess

#25 Blogthing!

#24 HALFWAY POINT

Friday Question Yeah, I know it's Sunday